life safari 08/18/08

Wouldn't it be nice...

days of old and cold

life safari 8/15/08

Something I read on a friend's blog just now took me back in time. He commented about feeling weird. I just assume it is because his mother just passed away. I could be wrong but, I recalled how weird I felt after my own mother passed away. It just felt so, well, weird to know that my mother was not a part of life (living, at least) any longer. I would never be able to reach out and touch her again, see her, listen to her voice, hear her laugh. She was just not on earth any longer and that was a dumb-founding thing for me to try and wrap my mind around. I was now a "mother-less child." Weird. Sad. Lonely. Lonely for her. My mother passed away 34 years ago and it is an anniversary I will never forget - May 23, 1974. Every funeral I have been to since hers is a re-visiting of that fateful day we buried her and the trauma surrounding the day.

I believe a part of me went with my mother. I loved her then. I love her now. I missed her then, I miss her now. Right now.

On another note, my Precious cat bit me on my arm tonight. I feel totally ambushed, betrayed and positively stumped as to why she did that. I bleed easily anyway but, she bit down with all her canines and it was not a little nip. Apparently I was not petting her to her satisfaction and she bit me over it. I am very disappointed and shocked. I would like to say that I did not react over it but I reacted like a mad woman (which, I was !).

The only thing I can say about this is that, she has bitten me once. It will not happen again without dire consequences. My animals are absolutely not allowed to bite me. My little cocker bit me once and I can tell you, when I got through with her, she never did it again. I hope that Precious got the message. I am so upset over this event. Now I wonder if I can trust her ever again?

Well, one thing is for sure, while writing all of this I began to cry a bit. I think I have needed a good cry. I just wish it wasn't over my Precious little cat biting me on my arm...some things just shouldn't be.

I feel double weird.

life safari 8/13/08

Dear Dave,

what a huge loss - know that I feel your pain. I just became aware of your mother's passing. She is with other's whom we have had to bid farewell to. She is out of pain and nearer to God now. Her soul is resting in peace.

I have fond memories of the night of your first AA birthday. I was fortunate to sit with her and talk and laugh with her. She loved you so much and was so very proud of your sobriety.

We are strong people and our parents knew we would do the hard things that were in their best interests.

I have come to realize that the harder things are asked of the strongest ones. Also, the ones who love us most depend on our ability to stay the course.

You have one more Guardian Angel. The one who knows and loves you the most.

You and Pat are in my prayers, Dave. I'm sorry I did not know of the Memorial service sooner. I will pay my respects here at the house and keep you both in my prayers. Especially at Mass this Sunday.

God Bless you, kathy

life safari 08/09/08

The Hummers are back ! This shot from past years. I always look forward to August and the arrival of these beautiful little birds. It is my pleasure to watch them feed, fight and run each other off the feeders and plants. Somehow they all get enough of what they need to make their long journey on their yearly migration.

Just another of God's wonders.

Happy Saturday !

life safari 8/5/08

Thank you Edourd for not being a strong, distructive storm.

Today, I am Grateful and Thankful for many things and many people...

Pat's smile and continued strength - this lady has proven to me that I am NOT in control. Our lives belong to God Almighty and that, He alone make the tides come in and go out - the tides of our lives as well

for a relaxed day - cool and enjoyable. One of the enjoyments is the fact that the storm is so docile

that I am renewed by the cooler weather

that I wanted to "eat", "eat", "eat" last night because of the possibility of a bad weather day to come. I, thankfully, resisted that compulsion. I did minimal damage.

That I have dieted and walked for a week and a half to no visible results of weight loss. Precious, on the other hand, has been dieting with me and looks swevlt !

Miss Precious is getting her teeth cleaned this Friday. I am taking the day off due to conflicting hours between work and getting her there and home after her procedure.

that I got very excited about receiving my "red letter Bible" that I have anxiously awaited in the mail yesterday

for the good seats to the Astro's Cubs game Sept. 13th for "Catholic Night". Cardinal DiNardo will throw out the first pitch

that, although I must go into work as usual, I am not as fearful that I will get stuck there by high water at the end of my shift

But, I will be prepared in case I must stay put

for the Grace and forgiveness of God. I strive to be pious, fail most often but, rather than throw up my hands, today I persevere

I am especially Grateful for role models that talk about their struggles on the same lines as above. One beautiful, loving and dedicated Priest that I have come to love and respect - when I stop judging, God shows me Heaven on earth -

THANK YOU, Father in Heaven

life safari 7/31/08

Oh, another month gone. Time is flashing past. However, this past two weeks seem to be never-ending. I have not been able to figure out why and how some parts of time drag and other zoom. Perhaps it has been the heat that causes me to feel like this (?). Or, perhaps it seems so because it has been so very busy at work with two companies leaving the building and three other companies coming in (?). Whatever the reason, we get paid on the 5th of the month again and it doesn't seem as though we'll ever get there !

I am Grateful and Thankful...

that for the past few days I have been walking in the park
I have also been getting up around 7:15 a.m.
Praise God I am eating less and eating better foods - no ice cream or junk
I am less down and achy because I am causing those endorphines to move about. I have heard that exercise helps ones mental state for years but thought it was B.S. - not so any more
to have chosen to get Precious' teeth cleaned. After 7 years of my Vet encouraging me to do it, after she told me it could extend Precious' life, I have chosen to go ahead.
August 8th - Friday. I will take a vacation day and have it down. Just like humans, the state of tartar on teeth can cause kidney problems as well as lead to diabetes and heart disease
that my car is running fine again and I will enjoy it for several more years if I choose
to be content today. There is no "thing" I must have to be happy
to have read a fascinating article in the NG magazine about Iran
to be happy, joyous and free today
thank YOU

life safari 7/24/08

what a couple of weeks ! had to put my car in the shop last Friday. I was blessed that it died in my driveway and I was not stranded out somewhere.

after all I had that needed to be fixed, I'll be driving this car another few years. Things just cost alot more these days it seems like !

work has been busy. had to work both shifts the other day - always tiring. I was supposed to stay even longer for that night (9:00 pm) but, fortunately, the meeting was cancelled-sweet.

I've gotten away from the routine that I had been doing the past 2 or 3 weeks and I am really feeling it. It is amazing to me that when I am not focusing on my routine (prayer, devotions, reading, Mass during the week) I get hooked into work and the problems, stresses and irritations that it brings.

A friend's blog brought me out of my self-indulgent attitude when he wrote about his mother and the end of life issue he and his sister is facing and dealing with right now. I don't have any problems when compared to these family issues. His sharing his process also gave me a new prayer renewal. My heart is with you D.U.

I am Grateful and Thankful...

for the fact that I have been through the loss of my parents for sometime now - time has healed those wounds. It dawned on me that it will be 6 years since my father's passing this December. My, time passes so fast.

for my Precious cat. She brings joy, laughter and lots of love opportunities to me on a daily basis

that I have a remedy for a bad attitude if I will just use it

I am very grateful that tomorrow is Friday

I am extremely grateful and happy for a good day of rain without any flooded streets out here in my neighborhood (not when I was finished I should say)

that my car is fixed. I had to rent a car and I was issued a Chrysler PT Cruiser. Now, I was happy to have wheels and airconditioning but, I would not want to own that model of car

that we (Houston) has skirted another hurricane

for God's Grace. I consider God's patience my salvation today.

Thank YOU

life safari 7/15/08

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MIKE M.

Good morning ! No rain for a couple of days. I just started the sprinklers in the front flower beds. I usually water every morning but ran out of time to do so yesterday. Yesterday I was on a quest to find a Brenda Lee CD. I am so grateful for Amazon. After going to search several music/book stores, no one had an album. I did, however decide to buy some other oldies I found in my search:
Kay Starr (Wheel of Fortune) one of my favorites by her
Rosemary Clooney
Kate Smith - she was once so very popular
Connie Francis - always one of my favorite singers. What a tragic life situation . A man who could not control his animalistic urge robbed millions of people of a gem ! Shame on you.
I get haunted by songs that I hear from time to time. Losing You is one of those. It was the background music in a show the other evening. I can not rest until I have it in my library so that I can play it as often as I wish.

I am Grateful and Thankful...

for another day of life
for wonderful memories as a kid of watching the Lucky Strike Hour where I heard the most amazing songs and singers (Many other variety shows of the 50's)
the job I have and the hours I work. I have come to appreciate even the late nights
that I have now completed watering everything - sweet
for a childhood and adolescence filled with great music and food - I was fortunate to eat at some of the best restaurants Houston had to offer in the 50's through the 70's
for my Faith today
for a religion that I love and enjoy living
to be sober, clean and smoke-free. It blows my mind to realize that November is only 4 months away
that AA led me to wonderful new ways of life
that had it not been for the years in AA I would not be experiencing this wonderful life !
Thank you people of AA and Lambda Center
Thank YOU Lord !

life safari 7/2/08

So much hurt and heart ache in the news and with folks all around. I wish I could blink my eyes and make things ok and happy.

The news stated that Israel may go to war with Iran over their nuclear weapons advanced and the U.S. is talking about how hurd it will be for us (U.S.A.) to be spread out in another conflict in yet another country. HELLO !!!!!!

Who, when did anyone invite us to go in there and fight? Why do we think we are supposed to fight in every skirmish that comes along? I am so sick of this B. S. of war and interference. Where does it get us? More young men and women in coffins for no good reason.

It seems as though our country is trying to self-destruct. If these 3 and 4 Star Generals want to fight so damn badly, why don't they go into the combat and leave the innocent majority of soldiers to go home to their families-alive. There has not been anyone threatening our borders since 2001. This is now 2008. Ben Laden isn't even a good reason any more.

On a happier note, a company has now made (like-plastic) bottles out of corn - totally bio-degradable. I am in awe. It will save a ton of oil.

Wish List:

to have a greater faith and trust in God
to love my fellow-man (woman) more
to be more charitable and kind
to smile more, love more, be more patient
to do the right thing just because it's the right thing to do
to do something special for someone else that no one finds out about
to have a clear conscience, no axes to grind with anyone
to wish other's all the happiness, prosperity and Grace that I want for myself
to hug that little Precious gift that God gave me tonight and hope that all the little dogs and cats are in their homes and out of harm's way

I am also Grateful and Thankful that I have these wishes tonight
thank YOU

life safari 2008z

Oh, what wonderful rain and cold wind this afternoon. It was marvelous.

After church had a wonderful lunch and long visit with a couple of friends from church. Coming home I got to enjoy that great cold breeze and lighting show. The rain finally started and, I was reluctant to roll up my car window on the passenger side. When it really began coming down hard, I had to.

I have had a relatively quiet and uneventful weekend. Actually, I have been having the same kind for some weeks now. It is just too hot, I have gotten too heavy and I just don't much care about straying too far from my base.

Another work week begins but - Friday off ! Yeah, I can dig it.

I am Grateful and Thankful for...

too many things and far too much to even put into words (for a change)
thank YOU

life safari 2008y

Well, happy Friday !! It is good to have an end to this work week.
I was not able to mow this morning. Yesterday morning I got out and watered everything well and for some reason got very ill after. So, I think it best to save that kind of work for Saturday. Having to go in to work feeling ill is not pleasant and is dangerous considering I was feeling to light-headed and faint.

Feeling better this morning, thank the Lord. I know one thing - I played a very small part in getting to the job. The work I did was to get dressed and pray for help getting there.

I am having to access my eating pattern also. That had everything to do with the problem. I usually do not eat until I fininsh my coffee in the mornings. Working in the heat on an empty stomach could be a major part of the problem. It has been fine for a long time but, time is marching on and I am not as young as I think of myself as being. It is a good case of still thinking my body is as young as my mind wants to think it is. Being over-weight is added into the mix and - OH BABY !!

Well, I guess I have had my pitty-party long enough. Now for what I am Grateful for:

to be alive
to have fairly good health considering how I treat my body
to have rain lately
for the prospect of more in the coming days
that I have a sense of peace and tranquility like I've never known prior
for my Faith today
Precious-what a Gift from God
to be changing into a more Faith-based person
Thank YOU

life safari 2008x

we have a nice breeze this morning-hot but I always welcome a breeze.
tomorrow is Friday, yeah !!!!!
some weeks seem much longer than others, this has been one of those long ones.
I spent much of this morning watering all the plants well. I still have the sprinkler on the front and side beds. Hopefully, I will feel up to getting the yard mowed at 8:00 am tomorrow morning and then can do the finishing - up trimming on Saturday.

this is the first year that I really have been enjoying the yard work - all of it, every time. That is a new feeling for me, just as some of the other enjoyments I have acquired the past year.

I am Grateful and Thankful for/that...

there is a larger group of birds feeding on the bird seed put out this year. I have several Cardinals, Mourning Dove, Blue Jays, Mocking Birds, a Tri Colored (wing) Black Bird (have not been Blessed with one of these for some years), Sparrows and Inca Dove
for the Faith I have today
Precious and her sweet and loving manner
that I am still employed and I am enjoying it more. Even though I must work late more and more
that I use my down time more efficiently and my working time more systematically so I create more down time there too
for life itself ! I have a friend who has cancer in the terminal stages. He was in Catechism class with me-Jack, I'm happy that you achieved what you truly wanted the past year
for new ways of seeing life, death and relationships
God's Grace
thank YOU

life safari 2008w

what a nice cool day after the rain. 89 degrees instead of 92 felt really, really good!

I am grateful and thankful for/that...

i do not know what happened to the little dog and do not want to think about it -hopefully, it's suffering is over

for more rain for the lawn and plants

that i am content with my job and making the best of all my late nights with the meetings (microsoft)

my level of happiness increases with my changing behaviors, my changing behaviors are instituted by my changing thoughts, my thoughts change because of my level of happiness

i think i'll go eat a nice slice of cold watermelon

awesome

Thank YOU

life safari 2008v

Goood Morning !!
little dog is still alive and came and ate and drank. He was sound asleep in a neighbor's flowerbed. My joy is that he is alive one more day. I know however, this is just a bandaid over a gaping would - his chances of of survival are hopeless since no one can approach him.
My gut feeling is that this little creature of God was left to survive on his own by the house on the corner -he seems very familiar with that particular place.
My heart aches for situations like this. Today, it brings to mind the sufferings of humans that spend their day trying to find food to eat, water and shelter to get rest where ever they can find it - what an exhausting way to live from day to day !

It is amazing to me to see this little dog rally each day when I find him and call him to let him know there is food down. I want to pet and hold him close, take him in give him love that gets chipped away each day from him. Soon, he'll tire of the whole process and probably walk out into the street to put an end to it. I thought that was what he was doing two evenings ago. I was so proud of his intelligence that he did not go into Corporate Drive. But, he does, in fact venture out in traffic if I try and get too close (Less that a football field).

Today, I am grateful and thankful...
that Precious is safe and healthy
that caring has extended to humans for me today
that I realize the gifts God has Blessed me with
to be greatful and willing to share what I have been Blessed with
Saint Francis of Assisi and His over-sight of all God's creatures
The Grace of God in my life today
thank YOU

life safari 2008u

What a beautiful day the Lord has made today !!

Got my flowers watered and the little dog has not shown itself as yet today. He/she did eat the food left out last evening.

That precious little dog sure knows to stay out of Corporate Drive. I did give it a chance at all the first day I saw it.

Well, I simply could not contain my happy feelings to be alive, well, and happier than I've ever been in my life on my blog this afternoon.

I must get to work and, that is another joy in my life today as well. I have great hours, I get much done in my time prior to work, I am earning a full weeks pay now again, Plus, I get more and more hours because Microsoft is having more meetings at night now.

Plenty of time to utilize those hours for prayer and meditation !!

One little phrase has helped me more than I can believe of late...

Kathy, change your thoughts: change your life.

life safari 2008t

Happy Monday !

it has been awhile since I've made an entry. Life happens. My CPU was down for a time, a power surge took out my regulator (and surge protector). All fixed for less than $ 200.00.

I am Grateful and Thankful for...

Life, itself. It is marvelous to be alive, well and happy
to be sober, clean and smoke-free
for the little stray dog that let me feed and water it yesterday. That poor thing. It was so hungry and thirsty that after wolfing down a can and a half of cat food and a gallon of water, slept from sheer exhaustion and contentment
it appears the poor baby has been homeless for awhile. very thin, mangie looking, seems to know the 2 streets bordering mine, will not come near a person or let anyone approach it. I suspect that owners moved away and left it to fend for itself
that I have a soft heart for under-dogs of all types
for the safety and health of Precious
that the storm has blown over at work and that I have changed those self-defeating behaviors - one day at a time
for a gratifying day with my across the street neighbor - we celebrated Father's Day with a wonderful lunch together. Thank you Don for your company yesterday and Happy Father's Day, again !
for this wonderful coffee. For honey and the bees that are still making it
that I will work both shifts at work today. I have ceased grousing about extra work
to be happy, joyous and free,
thank YOU

life safari 2008s

Oh, Happy Friday !

It has been a long week. Had to stay late at work two nights in a row - my local software company has had meetings.
My a/c in the car is out. I appreciate any cool air more than I ever have.
I have been staying busy on a pretty consistant schedule for the past few weeks. I have a couple of days that I can recoup if my back is giving me problems or I just need a bit more sleep - sweet !
I have been on the computer longer tonight than I have in weeks. Looked in on some of my friend's Blogs - very entertaining and fun.

I'll be staying in town the long weekend. My lawn needs cutting and I want to trim some plants and get them looking more groomed. It will be fun to have an extra day away from work - I am tired. For about 9 months I was only working a 4 day work week. Now I'm back to 5 days a week - yes, I feel it !

I am Grateful and Thankful for/that...

I have a new outlook on life
I do not wish to shut the door on my past and,
I do see where my experiences can benefit someone else.
I am very Blessed and have a very full life now. There have been so many changes in me since I started my Faith Journey. The culmination of hard work, study, trust and belief in God and happiness in the Catholic Religion came to a fantastic crescendo on the Sunday of my Confirmation and First Holy Communion. A very close friend of mine said that I was absolutely glowing that day. And, I was. It has been the happiest day of my life. I knew that being able to participate in the Lord's Supper was going to be a transforming experience for me and, it has been !
that we are free to celebrate any religion we choose, here, in America
for God's Grace
for God's gifts - the gift of my faith, the gift of Precious in my home life. the gift of forgiveness of sins, the gift of Love and abundant JOY

Praise to YOU, Lord Jesus Christ !

thank YOU !!!!

Oh yes, today is the 34th anniversary of my Mother's death. I held her in my prayers and thoughts today. I miss you Mother ! And, I love you, Mother !

life safari 2008r

A lovely Saturday, a bit cool and over-cast.

Well, I have been out of the loop for a time. dAAve got a neat, restored T-Bird, he anad his friend have found a new home - such exciting stuff !!!

Today, I am Grateful and Thankful for/that...

I'm off work today and tomorrow
there is a seminar I am attending for training to work with children (spotting abuse signs, staying beyond accusations, etc.)
I am going out to water my plants, feed the birds (and St. Francis' squirrels)
Have a WONDERFUL DAY !!!!!

life safari 2008q

Happy Thursday, everyone ! Got a spot of rain, now the sun is out - you Houstonians know what THAT means. Say it...humidity to the max

Today, I am Grateful and Thankful...
to be alive and well
to have a job that I like
to have a job, period !
for the bit of rain we did get this morning
for the Gift of Faith that I have today
to the Lord Jesus Christ for His Gifts of many Blessings
that I seek ways to give back what He has generously given me - I don't have to look very far
I am Blessed to be able to help some of the homeless and hungry folks in my area
for the Gift of this very precious cat who lives with me and keeps me laughing. She curled up that fairly large body into a round plastic planter on top of the table in the atrium - what a hoot it was to watch her circle and figure out how to curl up in it - she has great perseverence !
for love
for joy
for health
for happiness
for sobriety
thank YOU
and, for not smoking ! I can breathe - Praise God !

life safari 2008p

What a wonderful evening last night. Visiting with people whom I love and admire, eating a lovely meal that was prepared and placed in front of us with lots of love and care. A most interesting andmoving talk on the Holy Spirit, my life just gets better every moment.

I am Grateful and Thankful...

for the richness of my faith and the St. Anne Catholic Community
it is truly a Community of open, loving and welcoming people
I have the best life - the same type of love and people in AA and at church ! Prais God !
Wow, it is grand to be me today. I feel like the most blessed individual around. My life is truly rich. And, I do not desire to forget my past or shut the door on it !
Everything that I have done has gotten me to this point in time. I never thought my life would be like this. That I would feel like this
for the many prayers of my loved ones
for my loved ones
that Jack is free of cancer and is delivered to us for recovery
that I pray for other's today. I keep Valarie in my prayers
for the wonderful, love of my little "big cat" - what a wonderful gift from God to me
for the gift of my faith today
for the Grace of God
thank YOU

life safari 2008o

Another week almost over. Rain on the way-my plants really are ready too. Tax time finished for another year- reason to cheer.

I am Grateful and Thankful...

an up-lifting visit to TrailBoss' blog site - just wonderful !!!
A enjoyable learning experience at RCIA tonight
a morning to sleep in a bit tomorrow
looking forward to working in the atrium this weekend
some cleaning in the bathrooms this weekend
getting all the broken electronic gizmos boxed up to get rid of for Earth Day
Recycling all my bags of aluminum, paper and plastic for recycling - let's get it to the recycling bins now-HELLO?
one more shift and I'm good to go
that I am still employed and I think the shoe in the air has been relaxed now-thank goodness !
God's Grace
Precious
the gift of faith
some mind-blowing realizations tonight. I must be about the only person that takes the Jewish Books literally ! Oh my gosh ! What a sap I am.
for knowledge and understanding - finally
thank YOU

life safari 2008n

Another gorgeous day in HTown.

It's trash day, good bye ivy that I torn down from the wall of my house ! Good bye and good riddance. What a mess.

It was a wonderful cool and breezy day Saturday. I worked in the yard all day until I could barely move. The house and yard are much improved.

Work is going well. The other shoe has not dropped on my head, as yet. Perhaps the trauma is over (?) I hope so.

Today, I am Grateful and Thankful...

to be alive and well in this beautiful day the Lord has made
Precious and I are here together. She is such a wonderful gift from God
Jim, as usual, did a brilliant job getting my taxes done on time. I always get it to him late
after today, I don't have to think about April 15th until next year
honey in my coffee
coffee in the morning. Or, anytime of day or night
time for myself and meditation this morning
Eye Doctor visit tomorrow - we'll see if my eye is well
just to be alive-happy, joyous and free today !
God's Grace
thank YOU

life safari 2008m

Oh, I am so happy that this week is over. I was still working on yesterday's errands into the night last night. I believe (have not heard otherwise) that I got it all done successfully.
Praise God !

I had a wonderful morning in prayer and meditation. I always feel recharged and Spiritual afterwards. I pray that I can carry this feeling all day. It is my best days when I can be happy, joyous and free ALL DAY LONG.

Something just exploded in the area of the back yards -Well, I see no fire, smoke or hear anything else irregular so, all is well.

I am Grateful and Thankful for/that...

I am alive and well this morning
excitement about getting out and putting lots of physical work in the yards tomorrow -rain or shine
Precious is alive and well and "cat-napping"
the Blessings of Charley Frazer, Jane Frazer, Beulah Griffin - precious departed Loved Ones
My precious Love Ones who are here with me - Thank God for you all in my life !
The Grace of God
thank YOU

life safari 2008l

I long to go in and lie down. I have been finishing up on some banking business I had to attend to today.
Oh, I have also played a bit tonight as well. It is good to see/hear my friends and family having a good time with their blogs.

I am very Grateful and Thankful...

that tomorrow is Friday
that I look forward to doing my yard work this weekend
to have made a better investment for a change
that May 4th will be here very soon
the anticipation of lying down on my heating pad and drifting to sleep in a minute
that I am Happy, Joyous and Free today. All day. It has been a few weeks since I have felt this happy
God's Grace
thank YOU

life safari 2008k

Well, I am up, ready for the day and happy to be here.
CCSC is giving the volunteers at Emergency Services a nice "thank you" breakfast this morning.
I have a busy day and evening. I meet with my CPA after work to give him my tax prep business.
Tomorrow and Thursday will be alot of running around too. I'm up for it.

I am Grateful and Thankful...

I beat dAAve and Scott up and at 'em this morning ( a first)
to be rested and ready for a biscuit and eggs for breakfast with friends
that I will be at the noon meeting today also
to be a citizen in America
to be a Christian in America
for freedoms that other's do not have
for a delightful ball of fur and love named Precious
to be sober, clean and smoke-free
Monday is over -yeah !
the other shoe did not drop yesterday
I feel better about the work "thing" today. I will not live today walking on eggs any more.
Whatever will be, will be-Doris Day
the gift of faith
God's Grace
thank YOU

life safari 2008j

Good morning. Well, I may have gotten myself fired Friday. If so, it's ok, I popped off to someone because I was kept late by, guess who, M___S__T once again ! So, if I'm done, I good with it. Frankly, I have not been happy there for some time now. I can't get on the morning shift and I'm sick of these late meetings, unanounced meetings, meetings called and don't materialize, well, you get it.

Had a frank discussion with Sonny yesterday regarding what's going on inside me lately. It was a real good talk and I am so happy to spend some time with him. He's doing well and feeling fit - that makes me happy.

I am Grateful and Thanful that/for...

I have a busy week because of April 15th - my least favorite time of the year !
I am prepared for anything today
it is ok with me whatever happens this week
a wonderful Mass yesterday - Father Tom gave a great Homily and I got a beautiful, intimate Blessing from a newly ordained Priest
my gift of faith
Precious and her funny little ways
all of the people I call "family." I love you every one
to serve other's today at CCSC
God's Grace and Mercy
thank YOU
Mike, I need your new Cell phone number !!!!!!!

life safari 2008i

i,i,i,i,i ! It's all about ME !!!!! Oh, now I feel better.

It really isn't. There is no i in WE.

Today, I am Grateful and Thankful for/that...

a fantastic topic and speaker at RCIA last night
a listening friend who told me her "stuff" too
I am extremely hard on myself and after our talk last night believe that I can let up - I am NOT the worst of the worst as I build it up in my mind (I feel I am Graced with God's Love and abundance in the morning hours and condemned and out of God's Grace in the evening hours)
that I have my reasons for the way I feel but that, other people are more prone to reverence and prayer in the morning as opposed to evening as well
for the courage to talk about this issue and get another person's experience
seems I am a pretty normal Christian
God's Grace
thank YOU

life safari 2008h

Thursday evening, back to RCIA. Had a wonderful talk about Vatican II and history behind of the changes it brought.

It was pizza night - always one of my favorites.

Helped a few folks find some clothes this morning. Was a bit slow today.

I am happy that tomorrow is Friday. It is my Nephew's birthday. Happy Birthday John !!

I am Grateful and Thankful that/for...

feeling better tonight than I did today (emotionally)
sharing with another human being really helps me get in touch with the fact that other people feel, do, think, some of the same things as I - I am not the only one
armed with the knowledge of the above, I can go easier on myself
I have some investment business to do this next week
this year I am really dragging my feet about getting my taxes done
I have been dragging my feet this year PERIOD !!
the promise of a new day tomorrow
Divine Mercy and saving Grace
ThankYOU

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What a wonderful day to be a new catholic ! The dedication and consecration of the new Co-Cathedral is exciting and beautiful.

The damper for me is that it is the day that Pope John Paul II died. But, He is looking in on the celebration ! This is quite a learning experience also. Many things are being explained that I have never heard because this type of experience has never come up until today-awesome !

I have seen many shows on tv of the Co-Cathedral - inside and out but I am chomping at the bit (as are many of us) to get inside to see it all in person ! Just beautiful, Heavenly and brought together with a lot of love by many folks who love their faith and religion.

I, and the rest of the RCIA students in the Arch Diocese were fortunate to be welcomed into the catholic faith recently by Arch Bishop Firorenza.

I am Grateful and Thankful...

to be in a religion and faith that I love and enjoy
to be sober, clean and smoke-free another day
to be able to witness the dedication of the Co-Cathedral today
for the gift of faith today
for the gift of Precious and her love in our home
God's abundant Grace, Forgiveness, Patience and Mercy
Thank YOU

life safari 2008f

The past week at work has been very difficult. Actually, since Mike was moved I have been rather uptight and on edge - unhappy. A period of mourning which I always tend to deny I am going through. OK, I've been mourning the loss and change. That doesn't mean I do not like my new boss, I do. He is very patient (like Mike), a very hard worker and has a very even temperment.

Today was a trying day with several customers. Sometimes problems pile up. On after the other and I am not able to cath my breath and re-group. It was one of those kind of days.
But, tomorrow is a new day and I intend to relax at home in the morning before going in.

I am just very glad that this work day is over.

I am Grateful and Thankful...

to be sober, clean and smoke-free
to see some old friends today - miss you guys
to have settled some things in my own mind that relieve me of some stress and worry
for the gift of my very sweet and loving cat, Precious. Thank you Lord ! She is a joy.
for God's Grace
for Frank and his patience, love and understanding. He is a rock and a Blessing to me
that Spring Break is over and back to RCIA Thursday
Thank YOU

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What a nice morning I've had ! Slept in a bit, read my daily meditations and readings with candles and incense to set a mood of tranquility and peace. This habit is one that I happen to enjoy and have practiced for some time now.

I am struggling with my habit of eating at night-sweets, and too many of them. Very compulsive and self-defeating. Tonight, I have vowed to myself and God to get out and walk rather than eat those things. Even if I only walk once around the cul-de-sac of my street, I must make a start. I Will Make The Start !

Weekend plans: yard work tomorrow, dinner out with Frank, Mass at 11:00 Sunday, walk again on Sunday. I will print this out and keep it in front of my today, tomorrow, and until I get a new habit established. It helps to talk about this. Thank you for listening and allowing me to make a contract with you, God and me.
I, Peanut, will walk at least one time around the cul-de-sac on my street every night.
signed, x ______K.M.F. - Peanut______

I am Grateful and Thankful for/that...
I am alive and well
Precious of daily joy and love in my life
I am sober, clean and smoke-free another day
God's Grace and the gift of my faith
God's patience which I consider Salvation today
the friends and family I am Blessed with
I know I will "wake up" those endorphines when I get off high-center and will feel better
Thank YOU
Peace be with you all

life safari 2008d

Wow, it has been a while since I've had or taken the time to blog. I seem to lose track of time.

It has been a period of trying to get back on a schedule after the Easter Celebration. What a wonderful and beautiful Mass we had at Easter Vigil (Sat. 3/22/08).
During that time I was having some back problems (too much weight) and not eager to get out of bed and start the day.

I am wondering what the summer will bring as far as scheduling at work. I may not be able to have Thursdays off after my RCIA program is over. I will miss the classes and people but will be very happy to be in full Communion with the Church on May 4th (Sunday 11:00 AM Mass). I have been very ready for the opportunity to exercise the Sacrament of Reconciliation and the Sacrament of the Holy Eucharist. I have been holding my breath for months, it seems. I am very excited to be close to being able to participate fully as a Catholic.

On the job front, I feel uninspired and a bit bored lately. I think I am in need of a real vacation !
Frank and I are going to France and Italy in Oct. or Nov. 2008. Time seems to be passing by so quickly - it will be vacation time before I know it. We must get our plans ironed out.

Well, my back is beginning to ache. I guess it's time for the heating pad. I am very disappointed that basketball is taking so much air-time on television. But,

I am Grateful and Thankful...

for the joy of living in Precious' domain
God's Grace and patience
to be sober, clean and smoke-free
tomorrow is Friday !
to be alive and well
for the folks that I love being alive and well
Spring break being over soon and the church schedule going back to normal (during the week)
for LOVE
coffee with milk and honey

Good Night

life safari 2008c

Tuesday of Holy week.

Going to Sears and shop for clothes. Just an outfit or two. I am tired of the same two things I have to wear. So is everyone else !

I am Grateful and Thankful...

for dAAve's support regarding my smoke-free status - thanks dAAve !
that I am alive, well and loved today
that I have the capacity to love other's today (genuinely, love)
God's Grace

life safari 2008b

Happy Monday of Holy Week !

This is going to be a very busy week and weekend. I look forward to all the activity and yet have much saddness regarding the Passion of Christ.

Today is a volunteer day. The second time I am involved in the front office doing computer work and phone work. I hope it goes well today.

Also, I will have a new boss today. Mike was transfered to downtown. I hope I will be happy with the situation. If not happy, at least patient, adult and reserved in my reactions to the newness.

I don't much like change, ya know? I have said my prayers and will "let go" of all today and just be a worker bee.

I am Grateful to be sober, clean and smoke-free
for the weekend and rest
that I can get up and around today-my back is very unhappy with this weight on me
that today I will stay in an attitude of Gratitude
thank YOU
Peace !

life safari 2008a

Good morning. Could not get to sleep last night. I have not wanted to go to sleep at night for many nights lately for some reason. Good programs to watch on TBN while awake, however.

Today, I am Grateful and Thankful...

to be alive and well
for the sacrifice made for my sins 2000 years ago
that God is Patient. That is salvation in and of itself
sleep this morning
I get a haircut tomorrow
that next week will be very busy but very Spiritual and solemn
for a gratifying life
that I have calmed down and some areas of challenge have smoothed out
to be Blessed with so many loving, Christian fellows in my life who are on the journey or, safari, as I like to refer to it
that one more shift at work and I can be off for two days
for Precious and her ways and cat love
God's Grace
thank YOU

life safari 2008

Good morning. Oh how sad I am about the comments posted on my blogs from "Micky."
This is an example of insanity and harassment.

If ever I became as judgemental as he, I would want to die. I also could not live with myself if I called myself a Christian and a catholic and said and did the things this poor, bankrupt soul is doing.

I am ashamed for, and of you Micky. Your comments and views of AA are foul. You are foul. I can smell the aroma of sulfur over the computer that you ooze, Micky.

I am Grateful and Thankful for/that...

I am a catholic but not the brand that Micky "claims" to be - Praise God !
I am aware that the Devil is alive and well in our daily lives - he is making his presence known in his vulgar comments
having a good and kind heart. I simply must follow it and not become a "Micky"
not a chance of that happening as he reveals more of himself to us
God's hand in Micky's life - Micky is exposed for what and whom he is
this gorgeous new day, a day the Lord made
to be happy, joyous and free today
for the blessings of being who I am - Get Behind Me SATAN !
Micky=walks like Satan, talks like Satan, smells like sulfur, speaks like Satan, hates like Satan...

God, deliver us from this EVIL
Amen

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Another banner day in Houston. What a delightful day it is !

I am Grateful and Thankful...

to be alive
to be sober, clean and smoke-free
that I am on a life-changing journey of Faith. The path has turns and detours like other journeys
I am proud to be Catholic and support the precepts and doctrines of the church
that tonight is Birthday Night and Frank celebrates 32 years of sobriety (I got the number wrong prior)
for the fact that I live differently than I did some years ago. I had nothing to do with that Blessing. I realize that God was doing for me then, so that I was prepared for now.
that my faith deepens and matures as the days and weeks pass
I perhaps had little or no control over my early development but I sure have control over my life and development as an adult
I have made some bad choices in the past. Most of my choices have caused a life-time of hurt-for myself and other's whose lives I touched
I will live my today and tomorrows in living amends
Precious
God's Grace

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Oh, dAAve is very ill. Poor baby can't even keep water down right now. I hope you get better very, very soon Dave !!

And, this Saturday my AA Sponsor, Frank J. celebrates 35 years of sobriety - Happy Birthday Frank !!!!! That is a long time between drinks.

Thank goodness it is Friday. I woke up with a cold - sore throat and congested. The weather changes has many of us in the same situation. Oh well, I am glad for the week to soon be over. One more shift.

Today, I am Grateful and Thankful for...

Spring is around the corner - everything is blooming around here !
my live-in companion, Precious. What a beautiful gift from God she is
the gift of my faith. Had a very challenging talk last night. It made me think about what I really believe and what I do not
to live in a country where I can worship as I wish and I will not be killed for doing so - other's do not have it so, unfortunately
that my past of straddling the fence on issues has everything to do with taking a solid stand on issues today, for me. I messed around and was a "people pleaser" enough for one lifetime
that I have been a loner all of my life. It may come in handy now because - well, what I believe may not be accepted/popular by others - oh well
God's Grace
thank YOU

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Happy Wednesday. What a beautiful full moon last night.

I am Grateful and Thankful...

to be happy, joyous and free today - free of smoking, drinking, other behaviors which block me from God
to be compassionate for those who are in pain. Emotionally and physically
to be settling into a good weekly routine
to have already been through many difficult times regarding death of loved ones
God's Amazing Grace
Thank YOU

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Another beautiful day !

Going to an AA meeting. Have a couple of stops on the way. It's a wonderful morning and I feel very alive, happy, joyous and free in Spirit.

I am Grateful and Thankful...

to have another day of life
a job
a Precious cat as a roommate
to be a Christian
to be Catholic and very proud of the religion I have chosen
that I have had a wonderful conversion in my journey becoming a Catholic
St. Anne Catholic Church has a wonderful, rich history - over 75 years strong
to be sober, clean, smoke-free
for the strong role models in AA
my family of friends has grown over the past few years and keeps getting larger
that, although I may not see my family of friends often, they are carried in my heart and I am in theirs - every day !
for the gift of my faith
that my faith gets stronger and more mature with every week
God's Grace and forgiveness
the feeling of love and happiness I have today
thank YOU

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What a beautiful day ! These weather days are what is so great about living in Houston.

I am Grateful and Thankful...

that Pat is hanging in there and having visitors who love her dearly
at times we do not know what God is telling us through the experience of someone else
but, I know for fact today that, there is a message of hope and faith in all things that happen
I believe that by "hanging in there," praying and listening, the answer will be revealed to us
that my life has changed so much in the past months
I feel secure and comfortable (at peace) in myself today and, Trish H tells me that it shows
God's Grace
the gift of my faith
Precious - what a wonderful addition in my life !
that "things" are not my focus any more
It is by Grace that I am alive, sober, clean and smoke-free
for the way I feel today. I try every day to share my joy and happiness with people everywhere I am. This is a far different attitude than I once had-Glory to God !
Thank YOU

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Happy Saturday !

On a 'not so happy' note, Pat U. is in hospice care now. Her health has been compromised for several years. God Bless you Pat !! I know you will be in a better place before long. Pat has silently and couragously been very patient in her life change the past few years - Dave and his sister were troupers in showing their mother care and love for this difficult period.
A vibrant woman, happy and caring. I am honored to have met you and spent an evening with you on Dave's AA birthday that night ! Peace be with you, Pat !

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Good Tuesday morning. I hear thunder out and apparently, we are in for more rain today.
It is fine with me.

I am happy, joyous and free today. It's good to be alive and healthy and I hope all of you are feeling well and doing well.

I just E-mailed Hillary Clinton. I asked her to please change her stance on abortion. I will not be able to vote for her unless she does. I doubt seriously that she will - that subject is so polarizing a topic, especially for women's rights.

When I decided as a 57 year old to convert to Catholism, I was ready and prepared to believe the precepts and doctrines of then Catholic Church. That is in all ways. I am no longer sexually active and have no plans of being unless the Good Lord sends a man into my life for marriage.

I had no idea when that Danielle's words to me, when I told her I was becoming a Catholic, would ring so true in my life. On the issue of abortion and being gay, she told me that her opinion was that, if I could not agree with the Church teachings on these issues that I was disingenuous. Those words hurt but, upon searching my conscience and much prayer, I realized that she was correct.

Now, I realize this may drive some away from me but, we all must answer to our God Conscience. I am doing what I believe that God has for me to do in the things I read and the way I feel comfortable interpreting.

That is what we all must do. I do not feel judgemental about other gays and how they live. I may not be a part of some activities today but, we all must do as we believe we are called to do in our best understanding.

I believe that I have been hesitant to share this part of me to anyone except my Sponsor and boss but, to be open and honest with you, my friends and family, I give you me. Some may decide that I have nothing that they want. I must be prepared for that. If you can not except me as I am now, I understand and will hold you in high esteem and wish you well.

I admit, I have been fearful of sharing this with you. But, I must now. I want to live as a devout Catholic comfortably and be open and honest with my friends and family.

May God bless each of you and keep you. Thank you for allowing me to share - finally.
Now, my soul can rest in peace and I can go on to do God's work without having feelings of lying by omission.

Peace be with all of you.

I am Grateful and Thankful...

to have the courage to tell you my Truth today
God's Grace

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Happy Monday !

Had a relaxing morning. Slept in.

After the horror of being lost trying to find a church yesterday and driving for over an hour looking and trying different directions, I decided to give myself a nice break.

Read and did my devotionals and will have my lunch before going to work.

I do not know who most of these people who appeared or won awards at the Grammy's are anymore. I am way behind times !

I am Grateful and Thankful...

for good sleep last night and a restful morning today
that I have time in my workday to read
for my consistency in my lack of road rage. It's becoming a vague memory
for the inspirational reading and music that excites me today
for the changes I have made and the promise of further work to change
to be sober, clean and smoke-free
for the gift of Precious in my life
for the gift of faith
and for God's Grace
thank YOU

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Good evening. Have been running all week and not had time or energy to do much but get to bed in the evening.

I am Grateful and Thankful...

for the opportunity to serve other's at Christian Community Service Center - this is the organization that I am volunteering some time to on two days
that the other volunteers there are kind, friendly and giving people
to Trish, my hair dresser for her activism, energy and eagerness to help get donations of food for the CCSC -thank you Trish
that tomorrow I get closer to becoming a full fledged Catholic- it is our Rite of Sending and Rite of Election
My Confirmation to Catholicism will be on Sunday, May 4th at the 11:00 Mass at St. Anne Catholic Church - ya'll come ! I'd be thrilled for you all to be a part of this process
for the gift of my faith
for Precious-what a God given gift of joy and love
for my AA friends and family who still stay in contact even though I don't see them often-I love you all !
God's Grace !
I consider God's patience Salvation
Thank YOU

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Well, what a storm we had this evening ! It blew in and out in a short, violent time.
Haven't had a chance to write lately. I am finding it difficult to find enough time in the day and evening these days.

It is a busy season and will be so for the next month and a half. But, very enjoyable and worthwhile.

I am staying up to do things I have not been able to get done today. I am enjoying my days and evenings like I never have in the past.

I am putting in volunteer time with a charitable organization that I am very taken with. It is well run, helps people right here in our city and has been caring for others in need for 27 years.

The organization is Christian Community Service Center and 27 years ago began with Emergency Services and attracted 6 area churches who donate necessities for those who are in need of basic things.
Now, they operate 7 programs and have 37 area, multi-denominational churches who volunteer and donate.

The mission of Christian Community Service Center is to serve the poor, hungry, disabled, and otherwise needy while respecting their religious, ethnic or cultural differences.
CCSC serves the innercity of Houston. A very densely populated area.

I am Grateful and Thankful...
to feel so alive and fulfilled right now
that I am getting more involved during Lent (prayer, fasting and charity)
Precious and her beautiful spirit
God's Grace
the gift of faith
my understanding and reliance upon the Lord has been growing and becoming stronger since September - thank you RCIA
that the RCIA team has directed my study and interest
that I have eagerly done the work
for the suggestion to read The Purpose Driven Life - by a cashier at Wholefoods
the above book goes right along with the goal of Lent- an awesome message and easy to read
that I am a new person in Christ
yes, Born Again/Born for the First Time (?). I just know that I have given up an old way of living for a new way of living and it is a comfortable fit !
I am not living for ME, I am living for The Lord - finally !

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What a wonderful weekend. I have had a nice day. Church and came home and ate lunch. I have stocked up on some things to eat on the days of fasting and abstinence during Lent and Easter.

It is a very exciting time for me. I have been studying and really working to learn the Order of the Mass, what it means to be a Catholic and so many other exciting and interesting concepts and practices of my new Faith.

My full Communion (Confirmation) into the Catholic Faith will be Sunday, May 4th at the 11:00 am Mass. I was Baptised in the Baptist Church when I was 12 years old. There is only one Baptism for Christians.

I have begun recycling paper, plastic and cans recently. I am involved in a charitable organization and truly excited about helping our Houstonians have better lives. I am working with Christian Community Service Center. We serve a large densely populated area in the inner-city of Houston. We have 7 exciting and worthwell service branches and many churches in the area are involved. All are different denomination, congregational churches.

I am happier than I've been in a very long time. I enjoy what I am doing and the doing has changed me in so many ways.

I am Grateful and Thankful...

for life itself
for miracles
Precious
God's Grace
58 years of a Blessed life
thank YOU

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Happy Saturday everybody !! It is a banner day weather-wise and otherwise.

Rosie is home and Trish, Lucie and Rosie are doing much better now that they are all alive and back as a family. I am very thankful for Rosie's daily recovery. Poor little Lucie shows the strain of missing Rosie while she was gone (to that wonderful Vet. College - A & M) and the worry is still on her lettle face in in her eyes. But, all are happy and resting well.

Trish is one of the most awesome women I know. I have known her for years but, not being very mature for years, I am now seeing her anew and appreciate her beautiful Spirit.
Trish is a remarkable hair stylist, cutter, colorer and waxer. Many of my aquaintances go to her for her work. The other think about Trish is that she is such an informed person. She has always been an activist in so many, many causes. She is a woman way ahead of her time in many ways. In other ways she has lead others, such as myself, to begin to get actively dedicated to making a difference in our world and for people around us.

I expressed a cause I was trying to get off the ground and guess who was the first to get donations for that cause? You guessed it - Trish ! Thank you Trish and the two Dentists who were so gracious to contribute.

I have determined that a few of us who enjoy singing should form a loose group for an choir to go to Nursing homes and hospitals to lift our voices for God through song. My thoughts are to sing acappella. Just a loose, love to sing for the heck-of-it group. If any of you are interested, please let me know.

I am Grateful and Thankful...

for Frank and his wonderful, loving sponsorship - he has his hands full, you know (teehee)
that Rosie, Lucie and Trish are a happy family again
Rosie is resting well and recovery is coming along
to be sober, clean and smoke-free
that it is my 58th birthday today and a splendid weather-day
for the gifts from Frank and Trish - Thank you two for your love and peaceful demeanor for soooo many years
for the beautiful and peacefulness of the Lambda Center now. If you have not been there lately, go by and see what I mean
for my sweet Precious. Every day I get to enjoy her love and company is a blessing
When I see upsetting things during the day, I go right in the house at night and pick her up and hold her tight. Then I feel better
for the gift of faith today
that tomorrow is Sunday and Mass at 11:00 am
for the longevity in AA. I am the person I am today because of AA and my family there
that I get to enjoy getting older and the level-headedness getting older brings
God's Grace and patience with me-that is Salvation today (His patience)
thank YOU

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Well, there is to be a scheduled outage at 4:30 pm PST this day.

What a wonderful 15 hours I've had at the house. I stayed up all night working on my service project. I love to stay up all night on occasion on Wednesday night since I'm off Wednesday.

I got the presentation written - it wasn't anything like I thought it was going to be. Isn't that the way it usually works out !? Usually what I end with is better than what I planned in the start. I just have to "work it, Baby !!

I am very busy right now. My dance card is full for a week. I'm happy, joyous and free. That's when I feel the Holy Spirit in me.

I got to the noon meeting at Lambda today and what a pleasant surprise. The Center absolutely looks fantastic !! Kudos to all the workers who did the work and Mark J. for having the vision and _alls to get it done !!
It looks beautiful in every nook and cranny. It looks like a nice coffee shop rather than a Baudyhouse. I loved the atmosphere and enjoyed seeing and being with everyone today.

I love you men. Mi Familia, La Corizon !!

I am Grateful and Thankful today.

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Wow, it's been a while since I've blogged.
Happy Monday everyone.

A friend of mine is suffering because her sweet Golden Retriever fell down some steps and broke her artificial hip joint. The dogs name is Rosie and the woman's name is Trish. Rosie is at A & M University. Rosie is having surgery today, perhaps she is in surgery now or has already had it.

Wish you both the best and my prayers are with you.
Let's all hug our precious pets a bit tighter.

You know, I have much I wish I could explain for why I have not been around the AA meetings in a while but, I do not feel that I want to go into it right. I don't even know if I will ever want to put it into words.

I do love you - my friends and AA family. It isn't that I do not love and miss you all, I do.

One of the things I can put into words is that, for all these years AA has been the "Church" that I needed. I had trouble for years seeing myself involved in any religion or church.
But, I have found a religion I am comfortable with and a church that I want to attend. It isn't that AA doesn't count any more to me. It is that Church and being a Catholic fills the need that I had when I was going to so many AA meetings.

I am an alcoholic in recovery. I do not forget that fact. If I had not been so involved in attending meetings I would not have been in a Spiritual place to recognize how much I wanted and needed a more structured Spiritual life. The church and Catholic faith brings me much joy and happiness.

This is all I think I want to share at this time. My life is certainly far from perfect. I still battle my food addiction daily, I have not begun to exercise and clean house (literally).

I do take my Catechism classes seriously and I study and read more than I do anything else.

This time of the Liturical Year will be filled with going to church very often. So, I will not be around for a while yet. My mornings are devoted to prayer and meditation before going to work. It is comforting and helps me stay on tract most of the time. The ox and cart are not off into the ditch nearly as often any more.

However, I find myself wandering in the Spiritual Desert from time to time. I keep seeking ways out of that place and enjoy doing the work of removing myself from there. I am not perfect and I will never be perfect - I believe some think that I think I will achieve that status at some future date. No ! but, let those believe what they wish.

There are some beliefs in the Catholic Faith that my conscience dictates that I reconsider and amend for my comfortability as a Catholic.

And do not get me wrong. I am a proud Catholic ! I do not wish to be disingenuous in regards to my Faith.

Please accept my new life and do not think harshly of my lack of being present in the meetings with you. You are in my thoughts and I am with you in Spirit.

Just realize that, I am seeking answers and I still have a ways to go and will no doubt, have more information as I go forward. I am just a Baby Catholic just now and can not partake in many of the Catholic Rites as yet. I look forward to the day that I will be able to fully participate in the Religion of my choice.

thank you and I hope no one gets put off by my explanation of where I am at present.

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Mother,

you are on my mind and in my heart.

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Happy Friday, everyone.
I had too much on my mind and, perhaps, too much coffee in my system to sleep last night.
I have those times.

I am Grateful and Thankful...

that today is Friday - 2 days off
I have some wonderful bread and turkey from Wholefoods to take for my lunch today
this wonderful taste to my coffee this morning. I got some more honey too
for my AA family and friends who still blog and comment on my blog - it means alot to me
it isn't raining here yet
to the renewed energy and zeal for prayer and meditation that I get after every Thursday RCIA night
for the wonderful Blessings that I have been given
for Trish and her Dentist relative who may be donating some needed supplies for the homeless
that if any of you out there would like to adopt some abandoned kittens and cats, please let me know. A very loving and conscientious friend of mine has taken some in. She wants to find good homes not take to any shelter or have them destroyed.
that Trish and Kathy are very proactive on causes and they have built a fire under me to get with it and work for change and conservation. These women have been doing this stuff for years and years. Good for you Trish and Kathy ! Thank you for helping me get started
Precious
the gift of my faith
God's redeeming Grace and forgivness
that I am happy, joyous and free this morning - with no sleep to speak of
God Bless

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Thursday night. Had a wonderful day off. Got my haircut, bought some cool ear rings. Stayed in the salon and talked about this 'n that for awhile. Had a good time.

I am Grateful and Thankful...

that I can be my own person with my own thoughts and beliefs in the face of anger today
my wonderful and skillful hair cut from Wavelength (Trish Herrera) She's ssoooooo good !
to be alive. to be sober, clean and smoke-free
to have Precious in my life. What a gift
for the gift of faith
for God's Grace
for memories. Good and bad.
that I can lay my head down at night in a bed, that I have a roof over my head, and heat
for inspiration from RCIA tonight
thank YOU

life safari 2008 (14)

Tuesday. Good morning.
Have an appt. with the Eye Doctor this morning.
Another day closer to Thursday.
I have been driven by weight gain to give up honey in my coffee. I liked the taste very much. Too much.

Today, I am Grateful and Thankful...

for life itself
a new day to work on myself and make some positive changes
morning coffee
Precious and her morning "love'n"
the gift of faith
the fact that I get some of this hair cut off in two days - it's alive with a mind of its own
to be sober, clean and smoke-free
just to be happy to be alive and well today
for the Grace of God
thank YOU

life safari 2008 (13)

What a positive(ly) fantastic day today.

I am Grateful and Thankful...

to be alive another day
to be sober, clean and smoke-free another day
for the day off today
to have dinner at Spaghetti Western with Frank to look forward to
that the Chronicle threw a free paper this morning for all
I will enjoy looking at it tonight while I watch tv
for the gift of my faith today
that I treasure my prayer and meditation time when I wake up (wake up-after 2 cups of coffee)
that's my reality (above)
to have a "little Tiger" living with me - Precious
God's abundant Grace

life safari 2008 (12)

Twelve is my favorite number. Big and round and even. (don't say a word dAAve !)
Happy Friday everyone. It is going to be a banner day - weather-wise.
Could not get to sleep last night. I have those nights. I just can't and don't want to stop thinking and moving about.

I am Grateful and Thankful...

that MS cancelled that all-day meeting tomorrow
my kink that I had in my back last night has disappeared - Thank YOU God
for this cool morning
the dove cooing
that it is the weekend
to be sober, clean and smoke-free another day
to enjoy Precious. What a wonderful gift from God to me (one of them)
God's Grace
for friends who enjoy sharing their knowledge unselfishly
to be able and willing to give to other's what has been so freely given me
I consider God's patience, salvation
for plans with Frank this weekend before he leaves town next week
I get a haircut next week
thank YOU

life safari 2008 (11)

What a wonderful Thursday !
the weather was outstanding. I had a lovely lazy morning to start and after several cups of coffee got going. Dug up some paperwork I had to respond to.
I took my time in my prayer and meditation and thoroughly enjoyed it. I was very peaceful and serene afterward.

My Gratitude List for today:

We had a wonderful talk tonight on conscience. Particularly, morality and conscience formation as a Catholic. It was very timely as I have been doing work on this very area of my life at this time. I got an answer to a question that I've had in my mind for several weeks. It is the next half of a change (life change) that I am making as I walk my Spiritual Path.

I absolutely LOVE my life today. It is because of opening my heart to God. Oh, make NO mistake. I owe my background of the past 10 years to AA and my AA family for where my journey has taken me to this point. My Spiritual Journey started in 1997 and has taken a route "as the crow flies". A slow, moderate start-again, stop-again route. Nothing planned, nothing expected. But, when I chose to seek solace in the Catholic Faith, my life changed. I stuck my toe in the water in 2005 but found I was not ready to commit. In those two years a small grain of interest and desire began to grow.

One of the best things I've done is join the RCIA program at Saint Anne's Catholic Church !
I have been on a growing and developing faith in God that has totally brought me HOME.

As Bonnie put it tonight, I am as a rose bud about one-third opened at this point in my development.

I am eager for the next two-thirds blossoming
Praise God.

Elayne, thank you so much for the materials you loan me to expand my education and interest.
Frank, thank you for giving of your time as my Sponsor and your help in my journey. I am proud and thrilled to take this walk with you.
Kudos to RCIA Team, Events Team (fantastic food every week) and all class mates. What a wonderful support system I am Blessed with - AA and RCIA-Awesome

life safari 2008 (10)

God gave us all the same amount of measure of Faith and Grace. I have just as much as Daniel did in the Lion's Den.
It's what we do with it.

Thanks Elayne. I will always remember the impact those words had on me. It gave me much hope and determination.

I love the story. Daniel 6: 2 - 29

life safari 2008 (9)

Oh boy, what a day today ! I have not had such a grueling day in a long time. Too many issues and upsets for one day. Glad I'm off tomorrow.

I would like to just take Precious and go away for a long road trip.
eat our dust !

I am, however, Grateful and Thankful...

that I had the background I had coming up
no one has to wonder where they stand with me - just ask me
But, you'd better have b___s !
this coffee. just what I needed after my day
Precious and her "kitten" that comes out when we play ball
Precious because she is so loving and nurturing. It is a Blessing that I have her at my abode
she helps me unwind from stress - thank you Precious
for praying for the Grace to go straight home from work rather than to the store for ice cream
God's Grace
that I am implementing prayer more. I am relying on God. I am trusting God more
I am letting God in
what a Blessing
Thank YOU

life safari 2008 (8)

Good morning, well, afternoon, now.
Slept in this morning.
Had a wonderful visit in the atrium by a pair of beautiful Cardinals. Precious and I were both taken with their beauty.

I am Grateful and Thankful...

for life today
the gift of Faith
to be close to a haircut - will get it soon
for Precious
all the wonderful, comfortable gifts I have been given so freely
I think about those who have no food or place to sleep comfortably and safely
I made my first step toward contributing to those in physical need this morning
where there is a will, there is a way
through God, all things are possible
It's a beautiful day
thank YOU

life safari 2008 (7)

It is Monday and good to be alive and well.

I am Grateful and Thankful...

for a new week to walk the path I feel called to walk by God
to feel light in Spirit today. I was weighted down yesterday
You know, I only need be accepted by my Heavenly Father
Today, all is well with my soul
I pray that the same is true for my loved ones
Peace be with all of you
Thank YOU

life safari 2008 (6)

Happy Sunday !

I am sitting here listening to something running in the background on my computer. I have no indication of what it is but it is absolutely maddening because it happens most often any more and slows down my computer to a crawl

I think some of these programs just "take over" in the background and I'm held hostage to them

I am also not pleased at this nonsense. The running has slowed now and it appeared to be Yahoo-Messenger that was the culprit. If it keeps up it will get deleted and that's that.

I am Grateful and Thankful...

that the delete button is at my disposal
finally, the noise has ended
to be happy, joyous and free today
that Scott had a very successful show and he's getting the recognition for his talents
for a good time with Frank last night
that's it ! I am going to relieve myself of this Yahoo Messanger right now
Later

life safari 2008 (5)

Yeah, warmer temperatures. I needed this changes so that my finger tips can heal. Cold weather is very hard on my skin on my hands.

Today, I am Grateful and Thankful for/that...

today is Saturday. Frank and my afternoon to eat at Spaghetti Western
and, after we eat, to go to Scott's opening of his very own art exhibit
Gospel music and wonderful singers
Precious. my awesome, sweet and loving cat. What a wonderful gift to me
God has Blessed me with too many wonderful gifts to name
I commit to sharing it all with other's
Pass It On
God's Grace

life safari 2008 (4)

Gooood Morning !! I am sad about some situations with a couple of my friends/family but, I know that, when we all hold our problems, hurts, etc. up to the Light of Faith, we can be healed.

Today, I am Grateful and Thankful...

for God's Grace
that it is Friday
it will warm up over the weekend. I have those nasty and painful cracks in my finger tips that I get in winter
that Scott got published in a pretigious magazine (awesome rug design)
that Scott also has his own Art Show this Saturday evening
that I am more prepared for Lent today than I was December 31 st 2007 - it's a Blessing
that we are back to RCIA
that my routine of going to Mass will start back up this Sunday
that Easter and, really, all of the holidays have a more special and important meaning to me than they ever have
Precious and her little Spirit. How loving and nurturing this little cat is
to be clean, sober and smoke-free another day
for my Faith in God today
thank YOU

life safari 2008 (3)

What a lovely day. I have slowly putzed around all morning and am finally ready to get a shower, dressed and get out of the house.
Have a few errands to run and then get to RCIA.

Today, I am Grateful and Thankful...

for the power of prayer
the more I study The Word, the stronger my belief and trust in God becomes
that I got on the treadmill for 15 minutes this morning. And, it was turned "on"
to be a new woman in Christ today
that Precious and I are together
for the fact that we are both healthy
there is a Pilgrimage I want to take soon to Missouri
my consciousness has brought me to a place where I must make some changes
I must be true to God as I understand Him according to my conscience and perspctive
that I can accept other's conscience and perspective for their own lives
that I hope that my actions will not cause any hard-feelings on the part of my friends and family. I however, must do what I understand to be my Spiritual Path
I am praying and talking and thinking hard regarding what I just said. I am not going to make a rash or impulsive decision
with this said, I end with the words I like and mean very much... Peace Be With You
thank YOU

life safari -2008 (2)

What a nice day - cold, but nice.
It is rewarding to be able to have happiness, joy and peacefulness all day. We'll try to duplicate what I did again tomorrow.

I am Grateful and Thankful...

that it will be in the 70's over the weekend (so they say)
to be home from work and warm
to have gone to the nooner and saw people that I love and care about
for that big bowl of hot Lentil soup for dinner
that I'm off tomorrow and RCIA in tomorrow evening (it's been 2 weeks)
that God spared 2 loose dogs from being hit on Bellaire this morning
Precious in my life
God's Grace
Thank YOU

life safari 2008 (1)

Happy New Year everyone. I fell asleep around 10:00 last night so missed (another year) the ball drop in NYC.

I am pleased with the new day today, the colder weather and clear skies.
I have much to be Grateful and Thankful for.

Friends and Family
God's Saving Grace through Jesus' death on the Cross. When I last expressed the thought that I was not good enough to have God's favor and forgiveness, a friend of mine said that... "Surely, Jesus shed one drop of blood for you." I found much comfort in that thought and so remember it when I feel unworthy of God's Grace.
for the committment to get my body in healthy shape - it is, after all... The temple that houses my Soul. My body is on loan to me for this day and age - it is not mine to treat without honor and care
to pray more
to pray with maturity as a Christian
to dedicate my life to God and God's Will
to love my neighbors as myself ( and, you know, it's all about ME) SO,
to carry myself so that folks see Jesus' face when they look at me, not mine
to look for Jesus' face in other's faces
to eat less and exercise more
to love more and complain less
to serve other's unselfishly
to help those who are hungry, homeless and in need of care
the only thing that separates me from those living in the streets is:
a bit of money and a few pills for my mental illness
If these folks had the money to buy the pills they would be like me in most instances - how sad they have not the opportunity that I have been freely given
to do the deal, not just talk about "doing the deal"
God, take me, use me and..."May other's see my good works and glorify God's Name."Amen

Again, Happy New Year ! Peace be with YOU

life safari #171

Well, Good morning on this last day of 2007.
I have been Blessed this year and have learned new things. Now, this year I have the challenge to act on the Blessings and newly found ways and thoughts.

I have let myself go physically. Gained a tremendous amount of weight and gotten myself in a unhealthy pattern - sedentary and lazy.

It is my goal and pledge to get myself up and out and walk - also to eat responsibly and sparingly. I know what to do, I simply have not been doing it - for a long time.

It's the getting the first step made - that is the step I am going to make with much celebration ! I am tired of doing the same things expecting different results. It's much like a dag chasing its own tail, no?

I am eager to begin 2008. I will be 58 Feb. 2, 2008 and look forward with happiness to the year ahead.

It is my mission to improve in these areas:
being more loving to all
better at prayer and meditation
helping the hungry, homeless and battered
becoming more Spiritual
spend less
eat less
exercise more
more Grateful
more Thankful
sharing my happiness with others
changing my thought process
saying nothing negative
judging no one
Happy New Year everyone

I am Grateful and Thankful...
to be alive
to be free of drinking and smoking
to live in America where I'm not persecuted for my religious beliefs and practices
Thank YOU

life safari #170

Good Morning, Happy Saturday !!

I am Grateful and Thankful...

to be off work today-with the weeks... start again, stop again (with holidays), I find it difficult to remember what day it is
I can savor my memories of 2007 for a day or two longer
to be delighted to enter the year 2008
for all the Blessings and Grace I have been given
to grow older with Precious. We are both slowing down a bit
the possibility of getting an A.M. shift again in the near future-somthing more "normal" and the opportunity to be available for Church service work on the Events Team
that Barbara is still holding her own with her infection. The Antibiotics have worked thus far
for my friends and loved ones with whom I look forward to being with in the year ahead
for RCIA starting again this Thursday evening. I've missed everyone and the lessons
for the cold, damp day - why not?
I will be 58 early this new year. 58 is the new 38 !! SWEET
God's Grace
thank YOU

life safari #169

Is it 2008 yet ?????

What happened. Time flew and now it's standing still.

I am Grateful and Thankful...

to be sober, clean and smoke-free another day
that the cold weather feels soooooo good
that I got my car fixed this morning. Had a generator light on - nothing major
that tomorrow is Friday
that the holidays will be over for a while soon
these broken work weeks are getting tiring
for Precious
that I know better than to tease any animal
God's Grace

life safari #168

Jesus' Tender Mercies
thank YOU

life safari #167

Well, good day for the ducks !

I am staying in my end of town today. It's supposed to get very cold in a couple of hours.

Today, I am Grateful and Thankful for/that...

I have lovely Christmas memories this morning
I'm not having to beg for alms today
I'm not in a hospital today
I'm not living on the street today
I'm not having to ride a bus to get around today
my family is not all deceased today
New Years Eve has not been a "big deal" to me for years now. I'm usually fast asleep before the ball drops in NYC
my family's business is closed from Christmas Eve until January 2nd - enjoy your time off !
for the gift of Miss Beulah's Pieta statue replica - Thank you John and Janice !
fond memories of Christmas' past (when we were ALL here)
Precious and her cat company
God's Grace

life safari #166

What a wonderful Christmas Eve and Christmas Day !!

Good company, good food, good music, goodwill and good weather.

Started Christmas Eve working. Ended with awesome music at Church and Midnight Mass.

Visited with a friend in the hospital late morning. Met a couple of her friends who came to visit also. Talked a bit regarding different topics, rearranged some of her presents so she could view them and had a nice time.

Went by the Lambda Center and got a cup of coffee, cookie and kissed a few frinds and made merry.

Went to have dessert at my sister's. My Nephew and Niece were there with their 4 childeren.
Had a wonderful time watching the kids do their "thing", talked and laughed and kicked back.
The kids all liked their stuffed Zoo Animals that I got them. Each different, all cute as can be. I scored on that Christmas ! I included a photo of the real animal with each stuffed animal.

Julia got the Maned Wolf
Hunter got the Meerkat
Lucy go the Snowy Owl
Ella got the Okapi Giraffe
Lucy wanted Julia's Maned Wolf but that was the only mis-fire we had and that got settled quickly because Lucy is Julia's "little sister" Big sisters know how to diffuse such situations. Julia put the Maned Wolf down the front of her blouse and ran away from Lucy until Lucy got over it.
What a fun and Blessed Christmas I had this year.

My sister and Brother-in-law gave me Miss Beulah's statue of the Pieta that she bought in Rome some years ago. I was and am very touched to have it. As my sister said, none of Beulah's kids are Catholic anymore and she would want you to have it. What a thoughtful gift from two lovely, caring and sentimental people. I will treasure it always.

Merry Christmas !!!!!

life safari #165

Well, Happy Christmas Eve !
Worked from 7:00 am until 3:00 pm, made $ 0.00 money. Had 18 tickets from those entering the building who were visitors, and, had no other activity. A very exciting day (yawn).

The weather pleases me. I hoped for cold weather the two days and nights.

It will be a long night tonight. I am going to hear the music concert at 11:00 pm tonight at church and then attend Midnight Mass.

Tomorrow, will go to 9:00 am Mass then to St. Joseph's Hosp. to visit a friend there for a while.
Then, I'm going by my sister's for pie and coffee and a nice visit at 3:15 pm. What a lovely evening and Christmas Day I have lined up !

Wishing all of you a wonderful Christmas Eve and Christmas Day - MERRY CHRISTMAS, I love you.
Welcome home Hayden !!

I am Grateful to be me, kathryn marie frazer today
I have an awesome life, awesome friends and loved ones, a truly Blessed life, indeed. All because of...
You, and you, and you, and you, and you, and you, and you, and, yes, YOU too !!!

life safari #164

I am happy that it is raining today. It suits me with this cold I have.
It is going to get very cold on Christmas Eve I hear.
I like it !

Today, I am Grateful and Thankful...

for life. a friend of my bosses was just killed in Iraq
I just wish we could all get along
no fighting, no shooting, no bombs, no hatred, NO WARS
that I can pray. You can pray. WE CAN PRAY
I believe our prayers have power and WE CAN CHANGE THE WORLD
God's Grace
Let there be Peace on Earth in our lifetime

life safari #163

What a gorgeous day. Too bad I had to work !
I am however, happy to have a job. The pay is not as good sitting here at the house.

I am Grateful and Thankful...

to be employable today
to be sober, clean and smoke -free
to live comfortably
to not have many needs and few wants
the means to cover my needs
the company of wonderful people and pets
the discovery of J. Vernon McGee's writings
new friends
old friends
family
Saint Anne's and all that comes with Her
God's Gift of the Holy Spirit
thank YOU

life safari #162

Well, what a pleasant day off today.
Went to a weekly Mass-much different than a Sunday Mass (much shorter too)
Visited a friend in the hospital, redeemed my Honey Baked Ham certificate that one of my customers gave me. These people at W_______m go all out ! Very generous and very nice folks ! Thank you Chris and Sheryl and all the rest of you whom I do not know.
Another customer Blessed me with a certificate - I bought some of my favorite things with it. Again, one of my customers who is just a dear man and his lovely wife. Thank you all and Merry Christmas to you and your families !!

I am Grateful and Thankful for/that...

I am sober, clean and smoke-free
the means to get to see my friend in the hospital. She is healing and no major proceedure has been needed - Bless God !
to be home early and to have enjoyed a wonderful dinner
Christmas is almost here now
To be able to be with Frank this Saturday evening for our regular meeting
for new friends and the warmth and care which they bring into my life
for the legacy of J. Vernon McGee-I got his series of books on the Bible. Finally got some information that is easy to read and that speaks to me in a real and easy way
God's Grace
thank YOU

life safari #161

Tuesday, got through another Monday - the week marches on.
Meeting a friend from RCIA for a lunch before work.
I hope the cold weather doesn't go too far away because, I'm hoping for cold on Christmas.

Today, I am Grateful and Thankful for/that...

I have another day of sobriety, clean from illicit drugs and I'm smoke-free
I've calmed down the sweet attacks (icecream) also
I'm trying to eat at least one good meal a day
my customers have kept me in the hearts this Christmas
I heard from an old friend. We vowed to keep in touch more last year but it didn't happen
to live with an awesome Cat Spirit
God's Grace

life safari #160

What a wonderful Saturday after Frank and I got out of town.
Houston was really socked in weather-wise for our trip to Chappell Hill.
It wasn't too far west and we got out of the bad weather and into beautiful sunshine and hills.
Went to have Christmas with Hawk and Dell and to Round Top for a concert.
Had a great lunch at Purcell's in Brenham (their fried catfish is the BEST), met Rachel the new puppy and played with she and Joyce.
Had a fun window shopping trip in down the road from the concert. The day and evening were relaxing and full of fun.

I am Grateful and Thankful for/that...

we got out of town for awhile
Frank and I had a good talk on the trip up
Good food, Good weather, Good music, Good company - Sweet !!
have spent the day at home. Cracked pecans and roasted them for Frank
watched the movie Jesus of Nazareth
ate some good tomato/basil soup
checked out my friend's blogs
watching television and...
spending my evening in meditation and prayer
Precious
God's Grace

life safari #159

Oh what lovely, colder weather !!
I was greeted out of sleep this morning by rain - it was a lovely sound and caused tremendous peacefulness to come over me. I had a wonderful day today and hope everyone elses day was as joyful.

I am Grateful and Thankful for/that...

the colder temperatures
that it is supposed to get colder
tomorrow is Thursday and RCIA
for all the supportive people and activities I have in my life
I have a truly Blessed life !
to be sober, clean and smoke-free
that I will climb into bed and snuggle under the covers in a few minutes
for Precious. She is a little ray of sunshine and moon-glow in my world. And, a Tiger I get to pet
God's Grace
the gift of Faith
I stayed in an attitude of Thankfulness and Humility today
Sweet !!

life safari #158

Tuesday. Still warm out and looks like rain again today.

I am Grateful and Thankful that/for...

I am forgiven
God's Grace
the gift of faith that I have today
the humbleness to ask for greater faith
to be grateful for the gifts of comforts and sustainability currently
the presence to pray for others
to ask for God's Will
the want for the desire and strength to carry His will out no matter what it is
thank YOU