life safari 09-20-08

Early A.M. Saturday morning. Have been redoing my Blog Profile and photo.

This goes out to Ungodly Sobriety:

I want to thank you for your following, your interest. I went to your blog but was not able to set up a following for me on your blog. I am not very good at this. I know very little and what I have learned cost me many hair-raising and hair pulling nights.

I want to tell you that I am very proud for you to have over 6 months of sobriety. I assume you attend meetings at Lambda by some of the blog names that you listed.

I have not attended there in quite awhile. I will have 11 years sober and clean this November 17th. But, I have been in and out of AA for around 25 years.

I just wanted to make a contact with you and and I'll be tuning in to your Blog so hopefully we can talk some.

I am up late because I am very agitated right now. I have written more entries to my blog in the last two days than I have in months.

I am very tired and am going to breakfast with a friend later this morning. I have got to at least lay down and get some rest.

Well, I'm glad you are open to being sober for now and giving it a go. Hope to have an exchange of ideas and conversation with you later.

peanut

life safari 09-19-08

The saga of "the job" (mine) and the "bail out" (AIG, Fannie Mae, Freddie Mac, FDIC, others I can't even think of right now) has me just ready to pack up, sell the house, withdraw any and all investments and move. Pay Ceasar what is Ceasar's out of the investments for early withdrawal and flee ! I am not sure I will have anything left considering the Government is spending all our funds.

Most of these failing companies got themselves into trouble by their own GREED ! Now, the markets are tapped out and their left with worthless mortgages and other strapped investments that they can't get loans for (and rightly so), we're having to pick up the tab. Well, I can't afford it ! I'm tired of all these big companies who are in bed with the people that run for office and get all these consessions and favors, promises and a blind eye turned - let the government US, hello !!) pick up the tab. I say, you play you pay. Why did they let Lehman Bros. go bankrupt. They didn't like them?

Who decides who gets the ride and who goes under? All these huge companies have 24-30 Boards of Directors who somehow come out of these failed companies rich.

I am ashamed, upset and frankly, worried about tomorrow in this Greedy country. A country spending my money and future on their rich buddies' failed businesses.

I say HOCKY, quit it, and I see why people stop paying taxes and get lost in the woods.

I am ashamed to be an American. I don't want either party to win. I don't believe in any of them or what they promise. These polititians all say what will get them elected.

I frankly do not believe any of them are honest, out for the good of us or can stop this speeding bullet train from crashing and killing all of us.

I am angry as hell and I'm not going to take it any more !!!!!!!

I feel the life being sucked out of me a penny at a time. The hell with this. At least Bill Clinton had a balanced budget until Bush came on the scene !

I can tell you this, one bank that I know of is concerned about a "run on their bank."

I think it's get what belongs to you or lose it today. What a difference 8 years has made. SAD !

life safari 09-19-08

this little face pretty much sums up how I feel this morning. Lost, alone, scared and perplexed by the past few weeks.

Too much work, too much stress, Ike, gridlock on the streets and in need of a nice change of scenery. A vacation is, indeed, going to be in the planning stages for me. I think a nice pilgrimage to the Shrine of Our Lady of the Miraculous Medal in Perryville, Missouri is in order.

Today, I am only Grateful that it is Friday and I can be away from that job for 2 days
Thank YOU, Lord

life safari 09/18/08

"He's got the whole world in His hands..."

Thank God for the end of Ike and the destruction. I am flabergasted by the total devistation of Boliver Island and Galveston.
My home was spared any physical damage. I appropriately feel humbled by this fact. My power was restored last night at 6:45 pm and now I have "power restoration guilt." So many of my friends are most likely still without I'm sorry to say.

This hurricane was one to learn new facts regarding hurricanes. For instance, it was on the water surge level a cat4. On a wind level a Cat2. I have never heard a seperation of water and wind surges until Ike. This storm was more powerful that Carla in 1961 because of the water surge category. We live and learn !

This morning, I am Grateful and Thankful that/for...

I and my loved ones are safe and alive

the power is back on in my home. I keep wondering if it will go out again. I'm not feeling sure of it just yet
many of my clients from work are safe, alive with no damages to some damages but, repairable

One client however, has a beach house in Galveston. She absolutely lives through her work week to leave work and hurry to her house there. I have not seen her since the hurricane so have no idea what her results are. I hope for the best for her but fear the worst. I do not fear for her life, I do fear for her happiness and devistation if her beach home is in ruins. Oh sure, she can probably rebuild. I have just watched her for 2 1/2 years and her joy of going to her "heaven on earth" every Friday. Theresa, you are in my prayers !

the street lights are getting repaired and workable - slowly. It took over an hour to go to Bellaire and back to work yesterday on my lunch break

the animals of people who had to evacuate were taken care of this time - up front (thank you St. Francis)

as other's have told me, I too got to know a couple of my neighbors that I previously did not know

that my coworker who was verbally using me as his "kick the dog" object for a couple of days has now suddenly shaped up since I threatened to go to Human Resources about it. And my boss stopped justifying his bad behavior too, I might add. Really, you two !!!!!!

It is shameful that the above is so commonplace (in the workplace) and some do not know how to get relief. I almost quit over this mess the second day of it. Had the situation not turned around, I would have made good on my threat. I may or may not have gotten resolution from HR but, at least it got the situation resolved just at the mention - just say'n...

for God's Grace and forgiveness. I am not an ideal Christian or Catholic. I wish I was better

I take solice in the fact that Mother Theresa had her doubts, blank areas of fellowship with God, etc. Yet, I know she kept her diligence up. I give up and wander in the wilderness (so to speak) until I finally realize that I can not do it by myself. Then I go running back to God for help and love and forgiveness.

I can't, He can, I think I'll let Him.

Thank YOU