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About Me
- peanut
- Houston, Texas, United States
- I am a native Houstonian. I have never lived elsewhere. I have had the opportunity to travel over the years. I am a recovering alcoholic. I have one cat who is indoor only.I love coffee very hot, popcorn, sweets, the sound of hummingbirds in flight, the songs of Mockingbirds, chirp of the Cardinals,butterflies, puppy breath, horse breath, the feel and sound of a cat purring (especially mine).
Saturday, August 18, 2007
life safari #65
Ah, it's Saturday again.
I am Grateful and Thankful...
no rain yet, today
two days off from work
that talking about my thoughts and feelings always diffuses my anger
when I get past just being angry and see all sides of an issue, I am less reactive and perverse
I wish I could get to the above faster than I do
that I realize that I need to be in a place of gratitude about having my job - it is a good deal for me
I get to do more service work at Lambda tonight
It's not all about me
I forget that life isn't fair - I know that for a fact but keep trying to make it different. It isn't fair for all, not just for me
to be sober and clean today
the realization that I need to laugh in the face of difficulty more often - I am too serious. Too intense.
that I was able to make someone feel special and cared for in a time of sadness, grief and loss
I have a "purpose" here on earth
God's Grace
Precious, who has changed me in ways that needed to be changed. Her little loving Spirit has tempered my reactions over these 6 - 7 years.
AA and my AA family have tempered the rest
Thank YOU
I am Grateful and Thankful...
no rain yet, today
two days off from work
that talking about my thoughts and feelings always diffuses my anger
when I get past just being angry and see all sides of an issue, I am less reactive and perverse
I wish I could get to the above faster than I do
that I realize that I need to be in a place of gratitude about having my job - it is a good deal for me
I get to do more service work at Lambda tonight
It's not all about me
I forget that life isn't fair - I know that for a fact but keep trying to make it different. It isn't fair for all, not just for me
to be sober and clean today
the realization that I need to laugh in the face of difficulty more often - I am too serious. Too intense.
that I was able to make someone feel special and cared for in a time of sadness, grief and loss
I have a "purpose" here on earth
God's Grace
Precious, who has changed me in ways that needed to be changed. Her little loving Spirit has tempered my reactions over these 6 - 7 years.
AA and my AA family have tempered the rest
Thank YOU
Friday, August 17, 2007
life safari #64
TGIF.
My emotions have been all over the place this week. Partly, getting back to work after time off. Work tends to interfere in my social life. Yesterday I realized I was depressed. There are some things that happen around work that are issues for "fighting for the principle" of it. I have gotten to a point in my life where I hate to be so conflicted. If other's would do what they are supposed to do when they are supposed to do it - there would be no problem. It's the notion of "where my rights begin and end" and "where your rights begin and end." It's an on-going issue around these un-announced meetings that I'm asked to stay late for at work. It now seems like a weekly ordeal and I feel my rights are at issue. This creates anger in me which leads to depression. Just do what you're supposed to do. Now hear this...your lack of organization does not create a crisis in my life !!!!!!!!! 'Nuff said ?
I am Grateful and Thankful...
it's Friday
rain and cooler temperatures
it takes a few days to figure out that I am depressed now but it least I finally realize what I'm feeling
in the past, I had no awareness of what I felt - ever. I thought I was just "mad" all the time
I can go over and love on Precious and feel better
no wonder pets increase longevity in humans - what a Blessing !
one more day clean and sober
the realization that I am not in a place of "surrender" on a couple of issues
the realization that, Surrender is the goal
this "Mortgage" mess has affected many. Some where I work. Yesterday was a very hard day for some. Unfortunately, there will be more ripples to come
God's Grace
Thank YOU
My emotions have been all over the place this week. Partly, getting back to work after time off. Work tends to interfere in my social life. Yesterday I realized I was depressed. There are some things that happen around work that are issues for "fighting for the principle" of it. I have gotten to a point in my life where I hate to be so conflicted. If other's would do what they are supposed to do when they are supposed to do it - there would be no problem. It's the notion of "where my rights begin and end" and "where your rights begin and end." It's an on-going issue around these un-announced meetings that I'm asked to stay late for at work. It now seems like a weekly ordeal and I feel my rights are at issue. This creates anger in me which leads to depression. Just do what you're supposed to do. Now hear this...your lack of organization does not create a crisis in my life !!!!!!!!! 'Nuff said ?
I am Grateful and Thankful...
it's Friday
rain and cooler temperatures
it takes a few days to figure out that I am depressed now but it least I finally realize what I'm feeling
in the past, I had no awareness of what I felt - ever. I thought I was just "mad" all the time
I can go over and love on Precious and feel better
no wonder pets increase longevity in humans - what a Blessing !
one more day clean and sober
the realization that I am not in a place of "surrender" on a couple of issues
the realization that, Surrender is the goal
this "Mortgage" mess has affected many. Some where I work. Yesterday was a very hard day for some. Unfortunately, there will be more ripples to come
God's Grace
Thank YOU
Thursday, August 16, 2007
life safari #63
Just want to tell Robert A. that I have he and his family in my heart. They have lost their Mother, GrandMother. It's not enough to go through normally but these Tropical Depressions are threatening to create havoc in the Brownsville area.
So sorry for your loss and I send you all my love.We at the Center, send you all our love.
Today I am Grateful and Thankful...
I am some years away from the grief of death of a family member
that time really does heal these hightened feelings
for rain and cooler temperatures
that last night is over - I am growing weary of working late so often
perhaps a "day job" would suit my needs better now
another day clean and sober
another week almost over
a payday on the horizon
God's Grace which I'll never deserve
thank YOU
So sorry for your loss and I send you all my love.We at the Center, send you all our love.
Today I am Grateful and Thankful...
I am some years away from the grief of death of a family member
that time really does heal these hightened feelings
for rain and cooler temperatures
that last night is over - I am growing weary of working late so often
perhaps a "day job" would suit my needs better now
another day clean and sober
another week almost over
a payday on the horizon
God's Grace which I'll never deserve
thank YOU
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
life safarie #62
Good morning. It is a bit cooler this A.M.
I got the yard mowed before we get rain from the system off our coast - I'm a happy camper.
I just delight in my yard when It is freshly mowed
Today, I am Grateful and Thankful...
for prediction of some rain (finally)
I am prepared, in case of hurricanes this year
that, my drinking/drugging story is "just garden variety" but my recovery is miraculous
to be alive - so many aren't
that I am sober and clean and smoke-free today
I am happy the way in which I handled my anger yesterday - I did nothing, said nothing and looked for MY part in the affair
that the knowledge that I have a part in everything takes most of the lashing-out away
lesson I've tried to get down all my adulthood - It's not What I say, it's HOW I say it
nice, loving, calm, polite and respectful is the way in which I choose to conduct myself today
for advance notice that I am requested to stay late at work tonight
Precious and her loving company
my Sponsor and AA family
God's Grace in my life
thank YOU
I got the yard mowed before we get rain from the system off our coast - I'm a happy camper.
I just delight in my yard when It is freshly mowed
Today, I am Grateful and Thankful...
for prediction of some rain (finally)
I am prepared, in case of hurricanes this year
that, my drinking/drugging story is "just garden variety" but my recovery is miraculous
to be alive - so many aren't
that I am sober and clean and smoke-free today
I am happy the way in which I handled my anger yesterday - I did nothing, said nothing and looked for MY part in the affair
that the knowledge that I have a part in everything takes most of the lashing-out away
lesson I've tried to get down all my adulthood - It's not What I say, it's HOW I say it
nice, loving, calm, polite and respectful is the way in which I choose to conduct myself today
for advance notice that I am requested to stay late at work tonight
Precious and her loving company
my Sponsor and AA family
God's Grace in my life
thank YOU
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
life safari #61
Ok, I've put down the cigarettes again. I had such a coughing spell last night that it was the only sensible choice.
I intend to work the steps on smoking (quitting), pray for help and just try and think how awful I felt last night - that remembrance should keep me abstainant for some time.
Good morning. A very Happy Birthday wish to Bob S. !!!!!!
I am Grateful and Thankful...
for the ability to breathe in oxygen this morning
God's Grace
another day sober and clean
the vacant house next door is getting their yard mowed - finally
it's garbage day for us
the hot coffee
that I have a home, yard, cat and I'm physically able to get around without a cane
Frank - a long-time friend and now my Sponsor and family
Bob S. - another long-time friend and family
for so many Blessings it amazes me
Thank YOU
I intend to work the steps on smoking (quitting), pray for help and just try and think how awful I felt last night - that remembrance should keep me abstainant for some time.
Good morning. A very Happy Birthday wish to Bob S. !!!!!!
I am Grateful and Thankful...
for the ability to breathe in oxygen this morning
God's Grace
another day sober and clean
the vacant house next door is getting their yard mowed - finally
it's garbage day for us
the hot coffee
that I have a home, yard, cat and I'm physically able to get around without a cane
Frank - a long-time friend and now my Sponsor and family
Bob S. - another long-time friend and family
for so many Blessings it amazes me
Thank YOU
Monday, August 13, 2007
life safari #60 3/4
Well, the day at work was good. Hot, but good.
It was rather slow which was just fine with me. Too hot to move around much.
Went to the noon meeting, it left me cold. I wonder why folks who don't come around for a very long time want to lead meetings because they seem to be out of touch with their audience, tend to talk about themselves in relation to the topic too long and too often, call on their cronies in the meeting, and in general, appear to struggle to fit in.
The other problem today was that several folks that shared tended to lecture and were using those "you" and "they" statements. Talk about YOURSELF. Speak from your gut about YOU, not outside yourself. Oh, I just want to scream when members talk like that in meetings.
Where is YOUR experience, strength and hope on the subject?
Sorry for the rant. If one does not have something to share, it is ok to pass.
I realize the main thing is to do what ever it takes to stay sober for that hour. It just frustrates me when I believe I'm being fed a lot of hockey.
the end
It was rather slow which was just fine with me. Too hot to move around much.
Went to the noon meeting, it left me cold. I wonder why folks who don't come around for a very long time want to lead meetings because they seem to be out of touch with their audience, tend to talk about themselves in relation to the topic too long and too often, call on their cronies in the meeting, and in general, appear to struggle to fit in.
The other problem today was that several folks that shared tended to lecture and were using those "you" and "they" statements. Talk about YOURSELF. Speak from your gut about YOU, not outside yourself. Oh, I just want to scream when members talk like that in meetings.
Where is YOUR experience, strength and hope on the subject?
Sorry for the rant. If one does not have something to share, it is ok to pass.
I realize the main thing is to do what ever it takes to stay sober for that hour. It just frustrates me when I believe I'm being fed a lot of hockey.
the end
life safari #60 1/2
Looking over the Shenendoah Valley from Skyline Dr. VA.
Martha W's beautiful home. Hi Martha, glad to hear from you again.
life safari #60
Ohhhh, I woke up this morning very rested. I feel physically better today than I have in weeks. For that, I am truly Grateful.
I am Grateful and Thankful...
to be alive, sober and clean today
to have had a fun and productive weedend at the Center
that I respect all of the board members of Lambda
to have a very loving Sponsor
that Precious is enjoying her time in the atrium being a cat
if I'm not careful, I may just get a healthy balance in my life (teehee) What a Blessing that will be
to be an alcoholic in recovery - I have a program for living
I embrace the changes I have wanted to make and was too hesitant to even try
that today is the first day of the rest of my life. I am happy, joyous and free today
Thank YOU
I am Grateful and Thankful...
to be alive, sober and clean today
to have had a fun and productive weedend at the Center
that I respect all of the board members of Lambda
to have a very loving Sponsor
that Precious is enjoying her time in the atrium being a cat
if I'm not careful, I may just get a healthy balance in my life (teehee) What a Blessing that will be
to be an alcoholic in recovery - I have a program for living
I embrace the changes I have wanted to make and was too hesitant to even try
that today is the first day of the rest of my life. I am happy, joyous and free today
Thank YOU
Sunday, August 12, 2007
life safari #59
What a nice Sunday. Too hot, but enjoyed the work and fellowship at the Center.
I am Grateful and Thankful...
that it is Sunday
that I worked hard along with other's and we got alot of clearing of "rubbish" accomplished
a new respect and understanding of my fellow Lambda Board Members - we are a good team
the more we are around each other the better we treat each other - wonderful !
You guys/dolls (Zane) at Lambda are very Special to me. You helped save my life. Thank YOU
to get to hole up under the ceiling fans and relax the rest of my Sunday
for my new "huge" refrigerator. It has a freezer too - Icecream !!!!!!
for Sonny, the sister I always wanted. I'm so Blessed that we have one another to love and share life together
for Frank and his love and care. It is my pleasure to get to know him and allow him to help me on my Spiritual journey
Precious and her loving little Spirit. She's a wonderful cat
that I'm not a roofer or on a road crew
God's Grace
thank YOU
I am Grateful and Thankful...
that it is Sunday
that I worked hard along with other's and we got alot of clearing of "rubbish" accomplished
a new respect and understanding of my fellow Lambda Board Members - we are a good team
the more we are around each other the better we treat each other - wonderful !
You guys/dolls (Zane) at Lambda are very Special to me. You helped save my life. Thank YOU
to get to hole up under the ceiling fans and relax the rest of my Sunday
for my new "huge" refrigerator. It has a freezer too - Icecream !!!!!!
for Sonny, the sister I always wanted. I'm so Blessed that we have one another to love and share life together
for Frank and his love and care. It is my pleasure to get to know him and allow him to help me on my Spiritual journey
Precious and her loving little Spirit. She's a wonderful cat
that I'm not a roofer or on a road crew
God's Grace
thank YOU
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