Oh Brother ! I have worked, checked, found when reopened the work I just did is not there.
Worked, checked, same thing. Reworked. It is amazing how time flies when I am totally focused on a goal.
It occurs to me that I may expect work to appear in a nano second. Perhaps it actually takes a few moments for the system to configure. Go figure. It has been a theme in my life up until this very moment.
Instant gratification. I want it now. I want to see it at the instant I push the "save" button.
I just know at this point that I am Grateful...
that I don't have to be anywhere until I report for work at 2:00 tomorrow
I can have some coffee now and then sleep for a few hours
I might learn some skills in these new endeavors in spite of myself
for friends that offer mucho assistance
to go lie down and rest my back. It is going to feel very good after all this whoop-la tonight
for a gut wrenching story at noon. I have nothing but respect for that woman !
for sobriety
for AA
for my fellows
for really wanting to make people happy today
to know a little about service to others these days
that Precious is so patient with me
I am going to be patient with myself today
For Grace
that I have not had that cigarette that I want while I sit at this computer
that I really am going to stop and go to bed now (right after I make some coffee)
Good Night
About Me
- peanut
- Houston, Texas, United States
- I am a native Houstonian. I have never lived elsewhere. I have had the opportunity to travel over the years. I am a recovering alcoholic. I have one cat who is indoor only.I love coffee very hot, popcorn, sweets, the sound of hummingbirds in flight, the songs of Mockingbirds, chirp of the Cardinals,butterflies, puppy breath, horse breath, the feel and sound of a cat purring (especially mine).
Thursday, July 12, 2007
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
life safari #24
I am grateful that my traveling friend is back safely and that my other friend is up and at'em with very little sleep. You rock SW. There'll be plenty of time to sleep one day - hang in there !
I am Grateful for/that...
I am alive one more day. I am clean and sober one more day
dAAve is home. Alive and well
SW has the strength to keep on truck'n and being beautifully productive
the Grace of wonderful people in my life. It is truly a gift of God
it is "hump day"
no rain again today (as yet)
that first cup of coffee of the day - the best
my furry roommate
the inspiration given unselfishly by all of YOU
Thank YOU
I am Grateful for/that...
I am alive one more day. I am clean and sober one more day
dAAve is home. Alive and well
SW has the strength to keep on truck'n and being beautifully productive
the Grace of wonderful people in my life. It is truly a gift of God
it is "hump day"
no rain again today (as yet)
that first cup of coffee of the day - the best
my furry roommate
the inspiration given unselfishly by all of YOU
Thank YOU
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
life safari 23 1/2
Well, I'm still trying to upload a photo to put on my blogger profile. I try again periodically. I came closer today than ever. At least the computer said it was uploading the photo. It never made it to the profile however. I will not stop trying until I get it on there. I want to leave my picture next to my comments like the rest. A fun moniker.
Scott, have you heard from Sober Chick latey? I don't recall seeing her comments lately. I may search around on your blog and see if I find her. I'll give her a jingle.
Until later, Happy Trails To You.
Scott, have you heard from Sober Chick latey? I don't recall seeing her comments lately. I may search around on your blog and see if I find her. I'll give her a jingle.
Until later, Happy Trails To You.
life safari #23
Good Morning.
I am Grateful that/for...
I truly strive to have a pleasant and positive outlook today
the fact that I have SW to forge the path ahead of me in this endeavor
a job close to home
God's Grace
Precious and her antics
my Family
an AA meeting tomorrow
for my desire to not complain, fuss, be negative, or self-defeating today
the catch word for the day for me...keep your mouth shut unless you (I) can say something positive, nice, complimentary
Thank YOU
I am Grateful that/for...
I truly strive to have a pleasant and positive outlook today
the fact that I have SW to forge the path ahead of me in this endeavor
a job close to home
God's Grace
Precious and her antics
my Family
an AA meeting tomorrow
for my desire to not complain, fuss, be negative, or self-defeating today
the catch word for the day for me...keep your mouth shut unless you (I) can say something positive, nice, complimentary
Thank YOU
Monday, July 9, 2007
life safari #22
Good morning.
I am Grateful that/for...
this is the next to last day I must cover someone else's shift (part of her shift)
my home looks much more pleasing because the grass is mowed and flowers contained
that the fledgling was nowhere to be seen yesterday evening (and no tell-tale feathers of doom)
although I reverted back to eating those soothing foods yesterday, this is a new week. I make a new start and new resolve
after many years of depending on other's to take care of my business, I have taken the driver's seat. I am very grateful to my sister who has had the biggest impact on helping me learn to take things upon myself. Thank you , Janice !
I am able to walk today after the physical work over the weekend
God's Grace
Precious and her little expressions and mannerisms
I have a job to go to
Thank YOU
I am Grateful that/for...
this is the next to last day I must cover someone else's shift (part of her shift)
my home looks much more pleasing because the grass is mowed and flowers contained
that the fledgling was nowhere to be seen yesterday evening (and no tell-tale feathers of doom)
although I reverted back to eating those soothing foods yesterday, this is a new week. I make a new start and new resolve
after many years of depending on other's to take care of my business, I have taken the driver's seat. I am very grateful to my sister who has had the biggest impact on helping me learn to take things upon myself. Thank you , Janice !
I am able to walk today after the physical work over the weekend
God's Grace
Precious and her little expressions and mannerisms
I have a job to go to
Thank YOU
Sunday, July 8, 2007
life safari #21
Scott, I'm sorry I didn't make it last night. I turned around and went back home due to the weather. Sorry.
I am Grateful that...
another morning with no rain
I will get the atrium spruced up today
I did not go buy those sweets I wanted last night
I can start the new week feeling much better about my home (the outside, at least)
I have hope that the fledgling dove on the ground will survive and grow - I did my part to help it
today I know that I can do only so much - then it is up to God and the bird, alcoholic, whatever
I was not flooded out on my journey last evening or stranded away from home
all is safe, happy, joyous and free in my world as far as I know today
Thank YOU
I am Grateful that...
another morning with no rain
I will get the atrium spruced up today
I did not go buy those sweets I wanted last night
I can start the new week feeling much better about my home (the outside, at least)
I have hope that the fledgling dove on the ground will survive and grow - I did my part to help it
today I know that I can do only so much - then it is up to God and the bird, alcoholic, whatever
I was not flooded out on my journey last evening or stranded away from home
all is safe, happy, joyous and free in my world as far as I know today
Thank YOU
Saturday, July 7, 2007
life safari #20
I am Grateful...
the lack of rain all day
that I got my front and back yard mowed
that I feel like I have a heavy weight off of my chest now -yards looked horrible !!!
that I didn't fall out from exhaustion
I stopped and had a sandwich so that I wouldn't fall out
that the front yard looks good now
I got the plants straightened up in the beds
I get to walk out and admire the work in a few minutes
that I reached out to Deanna and we have plans. I have frustrated her because I told her we should do things together and then was not able to follow through
for the fact that I am not overeating and so, I have more time on my hands to do other things
I am proud of myself for the changes I've made lately
that "I Am" growing and changing
that "I Am" going to lose this weight I put on
that "I Am" able to have a better attitude because I'm not sabotoging my happiness today
for the fact that I do not have to judge my past. It is what it is and was then -moving on...
that "I Am" a worthwhile person today. I try very hard to be what I define as "good"
oh man, my feet and legs are cramping up on me. Too long a period since I worked this physically hard. I think another banana is in order. And, a couple of Advil wouldn't hurt.
Thank YOU
Also,
Scott, thank you for sharing new discoveries with me. It is changing my life ! Love YOU
And, yes, I am Grateful for God's Grace.
the lack of rain all day
that I got my front and back yard mowed
that I feel like I have a heavy weight off of my chest now -yards looked horrible !!!
that I didn't fall out from exhaustion
I stopped and had a sandwich so that I wouldn't fall out
that the front yard looks good now
I got the plants straightened up in the beds
I get to walk out and admire the work in a few minutes
that I reached out to Deanna and we have plans. I have frustrated her because I told her we should do things together and then was not able to follow through
for the fact that I am not overeating and so, I have more time on my hands to do other things
I am proud of myself for the changes I've made lately
that "I Am" growing and changing
that "I Am" going to lose this weight I put on
that "I Am" able to have a better attitude because I'm not sabotoging my happiness today
for the fact that I do not have to judge my past. It is what it is and was then -moving on...
that "I Am" a worthwhile person today. I try very hard to be what I define as "good"
oh man, my feet and legs are cramping up on me. Too long a period since I worked this physically hard. I think another banana is in order. And, a couple of Advil wouldn't hurt.
Thank YOU
Also,
Scott, thank you for sharing new discoveries with me. It is changing my life ! Love YOU
And, yes, I am Grateful for God's Grace.
Friday, July 6, 2007
Thursday, July 5, 2007
life safari # 19
Happy Friday !! A nice short work week, I like it.
Today I am Grateful for...
My friends and family - what wonderful people surround me. I am truly Blessed !
for another day of life and a weekend ahead
that my overeating has abated at present
a new day to experience who and what I truly was born to be - loving, happy,nonjudgemental,patient and kind
AA
Prayer
becoming "teachable" at some point in the past 9 years
that my mind is becoming more open. I can see shades of gray in my thinking today.
Awesome (statment above). Who would have thought?
my job and the interesting people I get to converse with on a daily basis
Thank YOU, and YOU, and, of course YOU.
Today I am Grateful for...
My friends and family - what wonderful people surround me. I am truly Blessed !
for another day of life and a weekend ahead
that my overeating has abated at present
a new day to experience who and what I truly was born to be - loving, happy,nonjudgemental,patient and kind
AA
Prayer
becoming "teachable" at some point in the past 9 years
that my mind is becoming more open. I can see shades of gray in my thinking today.
Awesome (statment above). Who would have thought?
my job and the interesting people I get to converse with on a daily basis
Thank YOU, and YOU, and, of course YOU.
life safari #18
Good morning.
I am Grateful ...
that although it is raining, we are not flooded as so many are
we are also not parched as many are
that this morning I am sober, clean and still smoke free - many are not
Amazon has an autobiography of Edit Piaf available - it will be arriving next month
although I must go into work early, it doesn't have to be before 11:00 am
for all this fresh fruit to eat
to be of good cheer this morning
the paintings of Scott Woodard - they are adorning my bedroom
for the particular job I have and this particular crew I work with
that I will get on the treadmill for at least 5 minutes when I get up from this chair
Ok, my socks and shoes are on, I'm doing it!
Thank YOU
I am Grateful ...
that although it is raining, we are not flooded as so many are
we are also not parched as many are
that this morning I am sober, clean and still smoke free - many are not
Amazon has an autobiography of Edit Piaf available - it will be arriving next month
although I must go into work early, it doesn't have to be before 11:00 am
for all this fresh fruit to eat
to be of good cheer this morning
the paintings of Scott Woodard - they are adorning my bedroom
for the particular job I have and this particular crew I work with
that I will get on the treadmill for at least 5 minutes when I get up from this chair
Ok, my socks and shoes are on, I'm doing it!
Thank YOU
Wednesday, July 4, 2007
life safari #17
Oh boy, life is certainly a mixed bag of surprises. I am grateful for SW urging me to be positive, Grateful, upbeat. Thank you SW.
Everything I touch on flickr and Blogspot is apparently working as it is supposed to, not as I wish. Oh well.
I am Grateful...
for my new painting by SW - gorgeous ! Thank you, I appreciate your work.
for not throwing Conversations with God out in the yard yet
that I am making positive changes as a result of the book
for this free Blogg Spot and other free programs
for this day off from work
that I bought lots of fresh fruit and some fresh vegitables after the meeting
for the awareness that I have completely let my weight go and I am disgusted with myself
I am trying not to feel shame because of my weight gain - it just is what it is at this moment
it can change
it will change because I am going to see to it !
for support from my family
for Grace
that I'm sober, clean and smoke-free today
I want for nothing and have all that I need
Thank YOU
Everything I touch on flickr and Blogspot is apparently working as it is supposed to, not as I wish. Oh well.
I am Grateful...
for my new painting by SW - gorgeous ! Thank you, I appreciate your work.
for not throwing Conversations with God out in the yard yet
that I am making positive changes as a result of the book
for this free Blogg Spot and other free programs
for this day off from work
that I bought lots of fresh fruit and some fresh vegitables after the meeting
for the awareness that I have completely let my weight go and I am disgusted with myself
I am trying not to feel shame because of my weight gain - it just is what it is at this moment
it can change
it will change because I am going to see to it !
for support from my family
for Grace
that I'm sober, clean and smoke-free today
I want for nothing and have all that I need
Thank YOU
Monday, July 2, 2007
life safari #16
I am Grateful...
that I have not thrown the book I am reading out the window. I wanted to yesterday because it challenges some of my beliefs.
that I will finish the book, then decide whether I want to incorporate any or some of the information/ideas it contains.
that I have people who share their experiences and what helps them along the way. Please don't ever stop.
that I am aware of my tendency to be closed-minded. Ok,Ok, a closed "trap door." I'm working on it.
for another day of life
that I am sober and clean one more day
that I had a successful day yesterday - my behavior was more pleasing on a consistant basis.
I get the opportunity to have success 2 days in a row today
for God's Grace
the Blessing of AA family
for the job I have - it really is well suited for me. I simply will get over my silly self
that today I will not shoot myself in the foot for the good things in my life. I do deserve them ! I am worth it ! I am loved ! And today, I do love, deeply and sincerely !
Thank YOU, and YOU, and YOU !
that I have not thrown the book I am reading out the window. I wanted to yesterday because it challenges some of my beliefs.
that I will finish the book, then decide whether I want to incorporate any or some of the information/ideas it contains.
that I have people who share their experiences and what helps them along the way. Please don't ever stop.
that I am aware of my tendency to be closed-minded. Ok,Ok, a closed "trap door." I'm working on it.
for another day of life
that I am sober and clean one more day
that I had a successful day yesterday - my behavior was more pleasing on a consistant basis.
I get the opportunity to have success 2 days in a row today
for God's Grace
the Blessing of AA family
for the job I have - it really is well suited for me. I simply will get over my silly self
that today I will not shoot myself in the foot for the good things in my life. I do deserve them ! I am worth it ! I am loved ! And today, I do love, deeply and sincerely !
Thank YOU, and YOU, and YOU !
life safari #15
I am Grateful...
that Monday is over (at work, that is)
that we had a reprieve from the rain this afternoon/evening
I am finished with my dental work - yeah
Wednesday is a holiday
that Lady A called this evening just to "check in" and chat a few minutes
that Lady A seems to be holding firm and hanging in - you go girl !
that I enjoy reading, music, movies, tv (some) and Blogging
that my home and Precious are safe
dAAve is looking forward to his trip, he's on his way
that 10 days won't be so long
God's Grace
thank YOU
that Monday is over (at work, that is)
that we had a reprieve from the rain this afternoon/evening
I am finished with my dental work - yeah
Wednesday is a holiday
that Lady A called this evening just to "check in" and chat a few minutes
that Lady A seems to be holding firm and hanging in - you go girl !
that I enjoy reading, music, movies, tv (some) and Blogging
that my home and Precious are safe
dAAve is looking forward to his trip, he's on his way
that 10 days won't be so long
God's Grace
thank YOU
Sunday, July 1, 2007
life safari #14 1/2
I am Grateful...
the rain
a wonderful Saturday - the whole 24 hrs.
that I see some really confusing "stuff" about Lady A and do not have to say a word
that it's her journey, not mine
that I can be "in the moment" alot of the time these days - what a Blessing
that my family is well although they have had some disappointments - BIG ONES
for the joy of being alive and sober/clean/smoke-free
the new day ahead to align my outsides with my insides
tomorrow morning is the last of my crown work with the Dentist
Edith Piaf's music
the rain
a wonderful Saturday - the whole 24 hrs.
that I see some really confusing "stuff" about Lady A and do not have to say a word
that it's her journey, not mine
that I can be "in the moment" alot of the time these days - what a Blessing
that my family is well although they have had some disappointments - BIG ONES
for the joy of being alive and sober/clean/smoke-free
the new day ahead to align my outsides with my insides
tomorrow morning is the last of my crown work with the Dentist
Edith Piaf's music
life safari #14
Aaaawwww, those were the days....
life safari # 13 1/2
Well, what an action packed day. I didn't do anything I needed to (like mow yard) I did what I wanted to.
I saw La Vie En Rose. Oh My, I was so impressed and glued to my seat. It is the best I've ever seen. I mentally keep pinching myself, asking myself if I really saw what I saw.
I didn't cry, it was too sad for tears. Also too much meat to take time away to cry. I was mesmerized, I tell you. I fell in love with the woman, the child she was, her voice and stature.
What a woman, what a life and what a real fantastic job of art the entire movie was.
One part of the film was so spell-binding to me. The director absolutely made the film unforgettable and dynamic with that scene (for me).
Enough about that. Birthday Night was fantastic tonight also. And dinner before, superb.
Now here it is 2:32 am, Sunday morning and I'm still messing around. And, I'm not the only one awake. Someone answered an invitation to join me on a new site. Thank you SW.
Well, I go to bed with La Vie En Rose still very vivid in my mind. I hear Edith singing, see her singing. I love her voice. That "Little Sparrow" with the big voice, Edith Piaf's life will haunt me, delight me, anger me and please me for a time to come.
I think the movie is a "must see." I hope it wins some (all) Academy Awards. Bravo !!!!!
I saw La Vie En Rose. Oh My, I was so impressed and glued to my seat. It is the best I've ever seen. I mentally keep pinching myself, asking myself if I really saw what I saw.
I didn't cry, it was too sad for tears. Also too much meat to take time away to cry. I was mesmerized, I tell you. I fell in love with the woman, the child she was, her voice and stature.
What a woman, what a life and what a real fantastic job of art the entire movie was.
One part of the film was so spell-binding to me. The director absolutely made the film unforgettable and dynamic with that scene (for me).
Enough about that. Birthday Night was fantastic tonight also. And dinner before, superb.
Now here it is 2:32 am, Sunday morning and I'm still messing around. And, I'm not the only one awake. Someone answered an invitation to join me on a new site. Thank you SW.
Well, I go to bed with La Vie En Rose still very vivid in my mind. I hear Edith singing, see her singing. I love her voice. That "Little Sparrow" with the big voice, Edith Piaf's life will haunt me, delight me, anger me and please me for a time to come.
I think the movie is a "must see." I hope it wins some (all) Academy Awards. Bravo !!!!!
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