life safari #76

Wednesday morning. No hummers sighted to date. Another awesome storm yesterday evening, beautiful and powerful. I do not like being in my glass "box" during lightening at work. I try and make myself very small - there's also the counter to dive under.

Today, I am Grateful and Thankful...
for another day clean and sober
that my hard work in my yard is very engaging and produces feelings of gratitude and enjoyment of a job well done
When I'm in the "Spiritual Zone," I get the same feelings. I strive to get back to that place today
I have vented my feelings about the frustrations and disapointments of my job, one last time.
No more talk - I'm done and I'm done. From today on, I give no extras, I care as much (or little) as everyone else involved and I do what I can and stop at that.
In almost 2 years, my efforts have not changed one thing. Why does it take me so long to see this? I am a "die-hard." I realize that my past has everything to do with this issue.
I treat every company I work for as I did when I worked for MY own business (the Family Business). It is a dead-end street. "UNCLE, I give !!!!!"

There.

I am Grateful for the fact that I do finally realize that I am repeating every job experience over and over. It is time to step out of this habit and be as ordinary as the next worker.

My late Father gave me a hardy work ethic. In the jobs I have had since leaving our Family business, that work ethic is a curse for me.

Inconguent. Forgive me, I needed to vent this. I am truly aware and set to be different today.
Thanks for allowing me to share.