life safari #3

Good morning.

Welcome and thanks for joining in Trudging. Scott and Dave, thank you sssoooo much for your kind support and comments. You do not know how much I appreciate and love you both. You two are "family" to me.

I am Grateful and Thankful that/for...
I woke up and God has seen fit to allow me to live in this day.
I have friends /family in AA who know more about me than my birth family.
You all accept me, support me and are there to love me when I make mistakes.
that I did not go buy a pack of cigarettes and snoke them last night.
I will stand up today or whenever my behavior of last night is presented and say, "yes, unfortunately I said that. I was wrong, I apologize. Actually, I need to go in and tell my boss what was said today. And I will. At least he can be prepared for the "steel claw."
To see, once again, that my recovery is tenuous some moments. That my mind is out to kill me!

Lord,
I realize that I have to up the ante, and really beg for a firing when I feel I was wrongly treated over something else.
I admit that I ask You to remove problems in my life yet I take them back. Over and over.
I think at times that I have surrendered things for You to remove but apparently I never surrendered them at all.
Bless Scott for sharing his struggle and awareness of this issue.
Help me to forgive myself, let myself off of this "HOOK," take a breath and begin anew today.
God, if You will, take mercy on me and let me keep my job that you have Blessed me with. Amen

Dave, I sent an E-mail to you but received an error message that it did not go through. Thank you for your comments and support. I do like this BLOGGING business. It is expanding my world. Thank you and thank you all for wonderful support.

More later, me