life safari - Wednesday the 28th of January

Good morning. It is cold but at least we live in a more moderate area - we aren't having ice storms, snow piked on our roofs so that the roofs cave in.
I can not imagine life in areas like that. It must be very difficult.
My hats off to those who are hearty enough to carry-on living in it. I am too much of a softy.

Today, I am Grateful and Thankful...

that I get another day of life

I slept - in this morning and, at least currently, I am not as depressed as I have been for a week
that in my past, I seemed to have been depressed as a normal way of life. Today it is a place that visits me on occasion. It is scary to me because I fear it may take permanent residence

my thoughts have been of "doom and gloom" for several weeks. Of course I'm depressed !

As a friend posted on his blog: "the thoughts I have today affect your life tomorrow." Loosely translated. It is so with me. I have very definately seen how, my emotions affect my body. And, my body's reactions are very immediate.

today, I have had many months of feeling great and very happy. I will not allow a week or two of saddness and depression to conquer me - I've come too far to turn back now !

I chose many months ago to go off of anti-depressants. I definately have had to deal through my emotions and come up with new ways of thinking and doing as a consequence.

If the day comes when I can no longer get myself through the depression as I've been able to do thus far, I will reassess my decision. I must say that I have worked very hard to make changes so that I could deal differently in life. Changes that have helped stave off being depressed.

that there is chemical help if needed

that although I have not been able to figure out this Geocaching set-up on my GPS receiver, I have taken a break and will hopefully come back to it tonight and "get it"

to know that, because my brain puts information together "differently" than some, it doesn't mean that I am stupid. I am a very detailed person on information. And my brain needs to be fed very detailed information. It looks like this: 1) do this, 2) do this 3) do this - no "daylight" for guessing what is done next for me. Other's can have some spaces in there that their brains can imagine what is done next. I see these as "nuances." My brain doesn't handle them when it comes to directions.

that I was able to vent here. I have needed to express what has been written but have had to get it all together in my own head to get it out.

God's Grace

the Mercy that I am given daily, hourly

for Precious who is so patient with me. I have tried to play ball with her more lately - she loves it

I love her

for love in my life

thank YOU