life safari - Saturday nite

Boy, wounded in love. What a dreadful place for a heart to be. It's going to be ok though. I put myself in this position - me, I. No one else.

I am Grateful and Thankful...

for the friends and family I have at Lambda Center. You all make my heart whole again with your love.

Precious and my Higher Power - these two ask every moment of the day for my love and ask me, no, BEG me to allow them to love me. And I want someone who can not return the love I have for them ? How totally stupid ! What a waste ! I cry myself to sleep over this ? No more !

for a wonderful night at the Speaker Meeting. And then dinner with a friend. And laughs with this friend. How very special and appreciated.

for frank talk about ourselves at dinner. How very healing. This is the best way to sort things out-talking with a friend. Thank you, friend !

that I realize I need to get back to the Spiritual path I was on prior to Jill coming back into my life-or rather, my getting back into her life. She maintains her distance

By the Grace of God, she and my other friend that I had lost contact with for several years ARE in my life in some capacity. That is what I had prayed for. My prayers were answered and then I took the ball and went head-long into something of my own creation.

So, as I said to start. It is a situation of my own creation. I have no one else to blame for my hurt

I very quickly placed my Higher Power on the shelf and put someone in that esteemed place

Idol worship. Pure and simple.

God, help me get back to YOU.

The Grace of God which defies reason and worthiness

Thank YOU