life safari 2008 (18)

Wow, it's been a while since I've blogged.
Happy Monday everyone.

A friend of mine is suffering because her sweet Golden Retriever fell down some steps and broke her artificial hip joint. The dogs name is Rosie and the woman's name is Trish. Rosie is at A & M University. Rosie is having surgery today, perhaps she is in surgery now or has already had it.

Wish you both the best and my prayers are with you.
Let's all hug our precious pets a bit tighter.

You know, I have much I wish I could explain for why I have not been around the AA meetings in a while but, I do not feel that I want to go into it right. I don't even know if I will ever want to put it into words.

I do love you - my friends and AA family. It isn't that I do not love and miss you all, I do.

One of the things I can put into words is that, for all these years AA has been the "Church" that I needed. I had trouble for years seeing myself involved in any religion or church.
But, I have found a religion I am comfortable with and a church that I want to attend. It isn't that AA doesn't count any more to me. It is that Church and being a Catholic fills the need that I had when I was going to so many AA meetings.

I am an alcoholic in recovery. I do not forget that fact. If I had not been so involved in attending meetings I would not have been in a Spiritual place to recognize how much I wanted and needed a more structured Spiritual life. The church and Catholic faith brings me much joy and happiness.

This is all I think I want to share at this time. My life is certainly far from perfect. I still battle my food addiction daily, I have not begun to exercise and clean house (literally).

I do take my Catechism classes seriously and I study and read more than I do anything else.

This time of the Liturical Year will be filled with going to church very often. So, I will not be around for a while yet. My mornings are devoted to prayer and meditation before going to work. It is comforting and helps me stay on tract most of the time. The ox and cart are not off into the ditch nearly as often any more.

However, I find myself wandering in the Spiritual Desert from time to time. I keep seeking ways out of that place and enjoy doing the work of removing myself from there. I am not perfect and I will never be perfect - I believe some think that I think I will achieve that status at some future date. No ! but, let those believe what they wish.

There are some beliefs in the Catholic Faith that my conscience dictates that I reconsider and amend for my comfortability as a Catholic.

And do not get me wrong. I am a proud Catholic ! I do not wish to be disingenuous in regards to my Faith.

Please accept my new life and do not think harshly of my lack of being present in the meetings with you. You are in my thoughts and I am with you in Spirit.

Just realize that, I am seeking answers and I still have a ways to go and will no doubt, have more information as I go forward. I am just a Baby Catholic just now and can not partake in many of the Catholic Rites as yet. I look forward to the day that I will be able to fully participate in the Religion of my choice.

thank you and I hope no one gets put off by my explanation of where I am at present.