The last day of this month.
And, AA birthday night.
Happy Birthday...
Zane 17
Diane 18
Kathy 18
George 13
Pat 17
________
WOW !!!!!!
I am Grateful and Thankful for/that...
I am sober too
to be in such great company much of the time
to have my house cleaned today
to be out of pain when I'm moving about. My pain is unbearable at night and early morning when I first get up. I'm under a Dr.'s care - I'll be alright
the weather today is so very beautiful
I'm Blessed with so much in my life
that my computer is operating correctly after not working right for so long
for second chances
that Mary is coming by my house to pick me up for dinner and AA birthday night - what a treat !
for the Grace of God
thank YOU
About Me
- peanut
- Houston, Texas, United States
- I am a native Houstonian. I have never lived elsewhere. I have had the opportunity to travel over the years. I am a recovering alcoholic. I have one cat who is indoor only.I love coffee very hot, popcorn, sweets, the sound of hummingbirds in flight, the songs of Mockingbirds, chirp of the Cardinals,butterflies, puppy breath, horse breath, the feel and sound of a cat purring (especially mine).
Saturday, January 31, 2009
Thursday, January 29, 2009
life safari - Thurs. 01/29/09
What a beautiful day out !
My computer has seen fit to shape up - last night and today. It is acting like a new unit, responding like it is supposed to and doing it with speed and grace !
AWESOME !!!! Many of you know the problems I've had lately with it.
So, I was able to download software for my GPS unit. I had done so prior (or, so I thought) but,
the computer malfunctioned and it was never downloaded. Well,
I have a GPS unit that is so full of good stuff. It is connected to my computer, I have many things to enhance the experience at my finger-tips and, all because my computer decided to operate like it should last night. I'm stumped but, to show my appreciation, I have gone in and deleted a bunch of photos and other stuff that should help it maintain it's good attitude and service.
I am so Grateful and Thankful :
you know how happy I am for this pearl (above)
for God's Grace
for the "delete" button
that I learned the hard way years ago to only delete things I created on the computer
that I still hold the title of "Queen of delete"
that now, I will defrag and clean up the mess of my deletions while getting ready for my AA meeting today !!
Thank YOU
My computer has seen fit to shape up - last night and today. It is acting like a new unit, responding like it is supposed to and doing it with speed and grace !
AWESOME !!!! Many of you know the problems I've had lately with it.
So, I was able to download software for my GPS unit. I had done so prior (or, so I thought) but,
the computer malfunctioned and it was never downloaded. Well,
I have a GPS unit that is so full of good stuff. It is connected to my computer, I have many things to enhance the experience at my finger-tips and, all because my computer decided to operate like it should last night. I'm stumped but, to show my appreciation, I have gone in and deleted a bunch of photos and other stuff that should help it maintain it's good attitude and service.
I am so Grateful and Thankful :
you know how happy I am for this pearl (above)
for God's Grace
for the "delete" button
that I learned the hard way years ago to only delete things I created on the computer
that I still hold the title of "Queen of delete"
that now, I will defrag and clean up the mess of my deletions while getting ready for my AA meeting today !!
Thank YOU
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
life safari - Wednesday the 28th of January
Good morning. It is cold but at least we live in a more moderate area - we aren't having ice storms, snow piked on our roofs so that the roofs cave in.
I can not imagine life in areas like that. It must be very difficult.
My hats off to those who are hearty enough to carry-on living in it. I am too much of a softy.
Today, I am Grateful and Thankful...
that I get another day of life
I slept - in this morning and, at least currently, I am not as depressed as I have been for a week
that in my past, I seemed to have been depressed as a normal way of life. Today it is a place that visits me on occasion. It is scary to me because I fear it may take permanent residence
my thoughts have been of "doom and gloom" for several weeks. Of course I'm depressed !
As a friend posted on his blog: "the thoughts I have today affect your life tomorrow." Loosely translated. It is so with me. I have very definately seen how, my emotions affect my body. And, my body's reactions are very immediate.
today, I have had many months of feeling great and very happy. I will not allow a week or two of saddness and depression to conquer me - I've come too far to turn back now !
I chose many months ago to go off of anti-depressants. I definately have had to deal through my emotions and come up with new ways of thinking and doing as a consequence.
If the day comes when I can no longer get myself through the depression as I've been able to do thus far, I will reassess my decision. I must say that I have worked very hard to make changes so that I could deal differently in life. Changes that have helped stave off being depressed.
that there is chemical help if needed
that although I have not been able to figure out this Geocaching set-up on my GPS receiver, I have taken a break and will hopefully come back to it tonight and "get it"
to know that, because my brain puts information together "differently" than some, it doesn't mean that I am stupid. I am a very detailed person on information. And my brain needs to be fed very detailed information. It looks like this: 1) do this, 2) do this 3) do this - no "daylight" for guessing what is done next for me. Other's can have some spaces in there that their brains can imagine what is done next. I see these as "nuances." My brain doesn't handle them when it comes to directions.
that I was able to vent here. I have needed to express what has been written but have had to get it all together in my own head to get it out.
God's Grace
the Mercy that I am given daily, hourly
for Precious who is so patient with me. I have tried to play ball with her more lately - she loves it
I love her
for love in my life
thank YOU
I can not imagine life in areas like that. It must be very difficult.
My hats off to those who are hearty enough to carry-on living in it. I am too much of a softy.
Today, I am Grateful and Thankful...
that I get another day of life
I slept - in this morning and, at least currently, I am not as depressed as I have been for a week
that in my past, I seemed to have been depressed as a normal way of life. Today it is a place that visits me on occasion. It is scary to me because I fear it may take permanent residence
my thoughts have been of "doom and gloom" for several weeks. Of course I'm depressed !
As a friend posted on his blog: "the thoughts I have today affect your life tomorrow." Loosely translated. It is so with me. I have very definately seen how, my emotions affect my body. And, my body's reactions are very immediate.
today, I have had many months of feeling great and very happy. I will not allow a week or two of saddness and depression to conquer me - I've come too far to turn back now !
I chose many months ago to go off of anti-depressants. I definately have had to deal through my emotions and come up with new ways of thinking and doing as a consequence.
If the day comes when I can no longer get myself through the depression as I've been able to do thus far, I will reassess my decision. I must say that I have worked very hard to make changes so that I could deal differently in life. Changes that have helped stave off being depressed.
that there is chemical help if needed
that although I have not been able to figure out this Geocaching set-up on my GPS receiver, I have taken a break and will hopefully come back to it tonight and "get it"
to know that, because my brain puts information together "differently" than some, it doesn't mean that I am stupid. I am a very detailed person on information. And my brain needs to be fed very detailed information. It looks like this: 1) do this, 2) do this 3) do this - no "daylight" for guessing what is done next for me. Other's can have some spaces in there that their brains can imagine what is done next. I see these as "nuances." My brain doesn't handle them when it comes to directions.
that I was able to vent here. I have needed to express what has been written but have had to get it all together in my own head to get it out.
God's Grace
the Mercy that I am given daily, hourly
for Precious who is so patient with me. I have tried to play ball with her more lately - she loves it
I love her
for love in my life
thank YOU
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
life safari 01-27-09
Another day to attend to health check ups. It's good to almost be finished with them and I feel better because I have done them.
The "biggie" is Feb. 2nd - colonoscopy time. Yes, I'm going to talk about it. It's one of those things that is not fun, people hate to have done but it is soooo necessary. Collorectal cancer is very curable when caught early. I have a history (on both sides of my family) of pre-cancerous polyps. So, I get checked every couple of years.
Now, it's your turn.
Today, I am Grateful and Thankful for/that...
I am alive and well
even though my computer is failing, I'm perservering
can not get my GPS system fixed to use in Geocaching and I haven't given up yet
to be sober and clean
to have people who love me and whom I love
that it is going to get seriously cold later today and I am not staying home under the covers
that I have a job
a car
a Precious cat
Grace
so much more
thank YOU
The "biggie" is Feb. 2nd - colonoscopy time. Yes, I'm going to talk about it. It's one of those things that is not fun, people hate to have done but it is soooo necessary. Collorectal cancer is very curable when caught early. I have a history (on both sides of my family) of pre-cancerous polyps. So, I get checked every couple of years.
Now, it's your turn.
Today, I am Grateful and Thankful for/that...
I am alive and well
even though my computer is failing, I'm perservering
can not get my GPS system fixed to use in Geocaching and I haven't given up yet
to be sober and clean
to have people who love me and whom I love
that it is going to get seriously cold later today and I am not staying home under the covers
that I have a job
a car
a Precious cat
Grace
so much more
thank YOU
Thursday, January 22, 2009
life safari - Wednesday the 22nd
Happy Birthday Trish !!!
Today, I am Grateful and Thankful ...
that I am alive and well this morning
to have friends
for Precious
for a new day
for health
for a job that supplies me a paycheck
a roof over my head
a car to get me where I wish to be
the promise of a new day and,
the Grace of God
for AA and Weight Watchers
for changes in my actions, thoughts and ways of behaving
for second and third and fourth chances (and beyond)
for God's Mercy
for art and my artist friends
for my intellectual and P.H.D. friends - who love the college drop-out anyway
for the peace I feel about myself and my place in the world today
for romantic love. Even when it isn't reciprocated quite as strongly
that I do not expect anyone to feel just as I feel
for this day of life and the desire to live it, love it and learn more
thank YOU
Today, I am Grateful and Thankful ...
that I am alive and well this morning
to have friends
for Precious
for a new day
for health
for a job that supplies me a paycheck
a roof over my head
a car to get me where I wish to be
the promise of a new day and,
the Grace of God
for AA and Weight Watchers
for changes in my actions, thoughts and ways of behaving
for second and third and fourth chances (and beyond)
for God's Mercy
for art and my artist friends
for my intellectual and P.H.D. friends - who love the college drop-out anyway
for the peace I feel about myself and my place in the world today
for romantic love. Even when it isn't reciprocated quite as strongly
that I do not expect anyone to feel just as I feel
for this day of life and the desire to live it, love it and learn more
thank YOU
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
life safari 01-20-09
What a historic day in America ! I wish I could curl up under the covers and stay home and watch it all today.
It is payday, that's exciting too. A bit less considering the new President gets sworn in today.
I am Grateful and Thankful that/for...
to be an American by birth and choice
I have been filling out health insurance forms the past three evenings and, I can tell you, it looks bleak. If you want health insurance, don't have any health issues ! My goodness, after three days of looking over my past 5 years (one wants past 10 years) of medical records, I should be on disability ! But, I have too many means to qualify there. It just puts me in a tough spot, psychologically
Today is a new day, I've given into the doom (last night) and today I will come out ready to fill out forms tonight - screw 'em !
Life is a real mixed bag of stuff. Now, I feel a sense of urgency about traveling. I feel that I had better get with it now while I'm physically sound (sort of) for, later, perhaps, not so much
What a juggling act life is
Today, I am perplexed by it all
that, I don't have to try and figure it out alone. I think I'll turn it over and have a pleasant day
And you?
for Precious and her company
for the people I love and that reciprocate that love
for God's Grace and Mercy
Thank YOU
It is payday, that's exciting too. A bit less considering the new President gets sworn in today.
I am Grateful and Thankful that/for...
to be an American by birth and choice
I have been filling out health insurance forms the past three evenings and, I can tell you, it looks bleak. If you want health insurance, don't have any health issues ! My goodness, after three days of looking over my past 5 years (one wants past 10 years) of medical records, I should be on disability ! But, I have too many means to qualify there. It just puts me in a tough spot, psychologically
Today is a new day, I've given into the doom (last night) and today I will come out ready to fill out forms tonight - screw 'em !
Life is a real mixed bag of stuff. Now, I feel a sense of urgency about traveling. I feel that I had better get with it now while I'm physically sound (sort of) for, later, perhaps, not so much
What a juggling act life is
Today, I am perplexed by it all
that, I don't have to try and figure it out alone. I think I'll turn it over and have a pleasant day
And you?
for Precious and her company
for the people I love and that reciprocate that love
for God's Grace and Mercy
Thank YOU
Monday, January 19, 2009
life safari - Monday of Inauguration Week
It is a party atmosphere in the country, especially in the District.
And, for good reason ! We as Americans have a new President and 4 years to work on things that have gone way wrong.
I am glad that there is a feeling of hope today in our Nation and most people. Some people are distraught at the change. To this I say, you've had your 8 years to the chagrine of others, now let us have these 4 years and try and not muddy the waters. Some real exciting things may just happen that will make you happy too.
I am Grateful and Thankful, today for...
Change
Change in me
Change in "the Guard"
Change in the Air
Change in _________. You fill in the blank.
Praise God and God Bless... our exiting President, our New President, our Nation and Peoples
Thank YOU
And, for good reason ! We as Americans have a new President and 4 years to work on things that have gone way wrong.
I am glad that there is a feeling of hope today in our Nation and most people. Some people are distraught at the change. To this I say, you've had your 8 years to the chagrine of others, now let us have these 4 years and try and not muddy the waters. Some real exciting things may just happen that will make you happy too.
I am Grateful and Thankful, today for...
Change
Change in me
Change in "the Guard"
Change in the Air
Change in _________. You fill in the blank.
Praise God and God Bless... our exiting President, our New President, our Nation and Peoples
Thank YOU
Saturday, January 17, 2009
life safari - Saturday
This carved tree is in the front entrance of the National Zoo, Washington D.C.What a wonderful day I've had thus far. I went to an early meeting and then got a fantastic haircut. My hair stylist is very good. She has a huge client base and for very good reason. She's also a wonderful woman !
I plan to see a movie at 4:00 then attend a Speaker meeting tonight at Lambda. I am getting out and "doing" these days and it feels good.
I am Grateful and Thankful for/that...
It was much warmer today. It is getting overcast and may rain tomorrow
I feel full. I feel satisfied being me for the first time in my life. It is as though, all those loose ends that I could not bring together have fallen into place
I really like and appreciate my new hair cut
I cherish my friends, family and cat
being in a place of acceptance and freedom from the oppression of doubt and fear
for the feelings I have for other's who are in pain. I pray for other people. I have had miracles worked in my life so I know that prayers work. I feel so good that, today I care for other's
the feelings of not being in chains to my selfish desires any longer
that I have this Precious cat in my life and a wonderful friend in Rosie, my hair dresser's Golden Retriever
the love of some outstanding people and to be able to honestly reciprocate with my love
I have an awesome life today
the Grace of God
Thank YOU
Friday, January 16, 2009
life safari 01-16-09
What a beautiful, however, very cold morning !
this summer, no doubt I will miss this weather. How soon I forget the opressive heat and humidity ! even as I don't care for cold weather
I have had a wonderful week. Hearing from two friends that shared lots of years and "stuff" with me - much of it while still drinking -because of this, I have been able to shed that deep sense of sadness and loss I have been carrying. I have everything to be happy, joyous and free (spirited) about.
I am Grateful and Thankful for/that...
Grace and Mercy given to me. I will be ever so humble and remember how that moment feels.
this, will aid me in extending the same Grace and Mercy to others
for the gifts of friendship and love - I may not have realized what it takes to "love" before this week but, I guarantee you, I definately know now. Better late than never !
that I have been working toward this change for 11 years through AA and recently, on a Spiritual level. It took getting involved on a religious basis for me to grasp that Spiritual level.
That the AA program is not a "one size fits all" - we all have a different path to the same ending:
stay sober and clean, try and make reforms with the guidelines, have a sense of conscience
awareness and be brave = a sober, clean better life.
for the simplicity of AA that I made so difficult for so long because I was just not able to put it all together at the same time.
the awareness that it was not ME who finally got me where I am internally today - it took a couple of villages for me
and the knowledge that there is more to do now
gratitude that I feel more equipted to go forward from here
Precious. One of many gifts my Lord has Graced me with
The Blessing of happiness today - Friends (all of yous) to walk through my jouney in life with me
Thank YOU
this summer, no doubt I will miss this weather. How soon I forget the opressive heat and humidity ! even as I don't care for cold weather
I have had a wonderful week. Hearing from two friends that shared lots of years and "stuff" with me - much of it while still drinking -because of this, I have been able to shed that deep sense of sadness and loss I have been carrying. I have everything to be happy, joyous and free (spirited) about.
I am Grateful and Thankful for/that...
Grace and Mercy given to me. I will be ever so humble and remember how that moment feels.
this, will aid me in extending the same Grace and Mercy to others
for the gifts of friendship and love - I may not have realized what it takes to "love" before this week but, I guarantee you, I definately know now. Better late than never !
that I have been working toward this change for 11 years through AA and recently, on a Spiritual level. It took getting involved on a religious basis for me to grasp that Spiritual level.
That the AA program is not a "one size fits all" - we all have a different path to the same ending:
stay sober and clean, try and make reforms with the guidelines, have a sense of conscience
awareness and be brave = a sober, clean better life.
for the simplicity of AA that I made so difficult for so long because I was just not able to put it all together at the same time.
the awareness that it was not ME who finally got me where I am internally today - it took a couple of villages for me
and the knowledge that there is more to do now
gratitude that I feel more equipted to go forward from here
Precious. One of many gifts my Lord has Graced me with
The Blessing of happiness today - Friends (all of yous) to walk through my jouney in life with me
Thank YOU
Thursday, January 15, 2009
life safari -Thurs. 01-15-09
Oh, Good Morning, all !
I am very happy to say that, I did hear from one of my friends which I had lost contact with. What a joyful experience ! I am please that she seemed as happy to hear my voice as I was to hear hers. Thank absolutely made my day.
I will just pick up and begin corresponding with my other friend that I lost contact with the past year. I did talk to her by phone and she told me that we are still, as always friends in her mind and that the miles between us have simply seperated us. I will not allow that to be from now on. I intend to correspond with her again on a regular basis. I miss her terribly !
But, there is a solution. All I have to do is get off my A_ _ and stay in touch.
Today, I am Blessed and truly Grateful and Thankful...
for life - another day to make my life in this world count for something good and genuine
for God's Grace
for Precious
that joy has replaced that pain and sadness that I felt at the beginning of the week (and beyond)
for getting done what I said I would do this year- a good physical check-up. My first appt. is this morning toward that end
for the gorgeous blue, clear skies lately. What a beautiful string of days we have had of late
for the cheerfulness I feel and..
the joy of life I am experiencing.
The Lord has Blessed my life and I have begun to let go and let God
and, it works !
Thank YOU
I am very happy to say that, I did hear from one of my friends which I had lost contact with. What a joyful experience ! I am please that she seemed as happy to hear my voice as I was to hear hers. Thank absolutely made my day.
I will just pick up and begin corresponding with my other friend that I lost contact with the past year. I did talk to her by phone and she told me that we are still, as always friends in her mind and that the miles between us have simply seperated us. I will not allow that to be from now on. I intend to correspond with her again on a regular basis. I miss her terribly !
But, there is a solution. All I have to do is get off my A_ _ and stay in touch.
Today, I am Blessed and truly Grateful and Thankful...
for life - another day to make my life in this world count for something good and genuine
for God's Grace
for Precious
that joy has replaced that pain and sadness that I felt at the beginning of the week (and beyond)
for getting done what I said I would do this year- a good physical check-up. My first appt. is this morning toward that end
for the gorgeous blue, clear skies lately. What a beautiful string of days we have had of late
for the cheerfulness I feel and..
the joy of life I am experiencing.
The Lord has Blessed my life and I have begun to let go and let God
and, it works !
Thank YOU
Sunday, January 11, 2009
life safari - Sunday - 01/11/09
Yes, dAAve, right you are.
It's just talk.
However, I am in need of a vacation - desperately !
I am Grateful and Thankful...
that I can turn a switch and get heat and cool in the house - what luxury I am Blessed to enjoy
I am sleeping indoors - I'm not out in the elements and prey for wild animals
I am fortunate to have a few friends - I haven't run them ALL OFF -yet
for the remorse and guilt for the ones I apparently have run off - I miss them
I have gotten in touch with two of the above - my efforts of reconciliation are ignored thus far
that the two above are really BIG losses
that although I buried the memory of these two losses for a time, I believe it has weighed heavily on my inner feelings of discomfort/saddness
perhaps I just need a vacation from myself
I can just imagine how Precious must feel. Perhaps she would enjoy some time to love me from afar (?)
Well, since she is unable to talk, I will never know. Although the two can talk, they choose to be silent
I will never shut the door on anyone again
It's just talk.
However, I am in need of a vacation - desperately !
I am Grateful and Thankful...
that I can turn a switch and get heat and cool in the house - what luxury I am Blessed to enjoy
I am sleeping indoors - I'm not out in the elements and prey for wild animals
I am fortunate to have a few friends - I haven't run them ALL OFF -yet
for the remorse and guilt for the ones I apparently have run off - I miss them
I have gotten in touch with two of the above - my efforts of reconciliation are ignored thus far
that the two above are really BIG losses
that although I buried the memory of these two losses for a time, I believe it has weighed heavily on my inner feelings of discomfort/saddness
perhaps I just need a vacation from myself
I can just imagine how Precious must feel. Perhaps she would enjoy some time to love me from afar (?)
Well, since she is unable to talk, I will never know. Although the two can talk, they choose to be silent
I will never shut the door on anyone again
Friday, January 9, 2009
life safari 01-09-09
Well, this evening, I had an "Update" on my Norton software and - my computer is operating better than it has for weeks ! ABOUT TIME !!!! I was so close to throwing the thing out in the yard - so many times the past few weeks. Now, this is what I'm talk'n about.
I am Grateful and Thankful...
that it is the WEEKEND (finally)
that I lost a bit more weight this past week
a friend of mine has lost quite a bit of weight in past weeks -his medical picture is looking better
that we had mild temperatures today BUT, we're in for a drastic change REAL soon (in the morning) BOO !
I may enjoy sitting in front of the fireplace with Precious this weekend. She enjoys the fireplace as much as I
that I don't live an apartment or townhouse - fires seem to strike these often
it seems that my leak in my bathroom is repaired. I now have a lot more closet space available
that I have never seen the criminal's faces who murdered a person as I am hearing a man on the news explain (he is moving and not showing his face on the news)He was also shot at
that if it gets much more dangerous in Houston and my neighborhood, I will sell out and move
part of me wants very much to move - Africa perhaps ? I could see myself living and working in the bush. This is a new thing for me. To allow myself to even dream of what I wanted very strongly a few years ago.
I think I'll keep that thought open to possibility and prayer
God's Grace
thank YOU
I am Grateful and Thankful...
that it is the WEEKEND (finally)
that I lost a bit more weight this past week
a friend of mine has lost quite a bit of weight in past weeks -his medical picture is looking better
that we had mild temperatures today BUT, we're in for a drastic change REAL soon (in the morning) BOO !
I may enjoy sitting in front of the fireplace with Precious this weekend. She enjoys the fireplace as much as I
that I don't live an apartment or townhouse - fires seem to strike these often
it seems that my leak in my bathroom is repaired. I now have a lot more closet space available
that I have never seen the criminal's faces who murdered a person as I am hearing a man on the news explain (he is moving and not showing his face on the news)He was also shot at
that if it gets much more dangerous in Houston and my neighborhood, I will sell out and move
part of me wants very much to move - Africa perhaps ? I could see myself living and working in the bush. This is a new thing for me. To allow myself to even dream of what I wanted very strongly a few years ago.
I think I'll keep that thought open to possibility and prayer
God's Grace
thank YOU
Thursday, January 8, 2009
life safari 01-08-09
I feel wonderful this morning ! It is going to warm up later today, that makes me very happy.
The low 70's are the best temperatures.
It is Thursday, almost the weekend. I treasure the weekends, I can putz about with no time limitations and enjoy staying up until I decide to go to sleep.
I am Grateful and Thankful for/that...
I had a wonderful morning prayer and devotion time this day
now I feel ready for the challenges of the world
perhaps today I will be able to put together meekness, humility and brotherly love in all my minutes of life - in every situation
especially in traffic !
I'm ready, willing and I feel able
Precious. We had a nice "us time" this morning before getting up
the sunshine and warmer temperatures
God's Grace
thank YOU
The low 70's are the best temperatures.
It is Thursday, almost the weekend. I treasure the weekends, I can putz about with no time limitations and enjoy staying up until I decide to go to sleep.
I am Grateful and Thankful for/that...
I had a wonderful morning prayer and devotion time this day
now I feel ready for the challenges of the world
perhaps today I will be able to put together meekness, humility and brotherly love in all my minutes of life - in every situation
especially in traffic !
I'm ready, willing and I feel able
Precious. We had a nice "us time" this morning before getting up
the sunshine and warmer temperatures
God's Grace
thank YOU
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
life safari 01-07-09
Have enjoyed a nice leisurely morning for a change. no rushing around to get breakfast, shower and downtown. of course, I have had feelings of shame, doubt and selfishness around this decision. Only because I have not stayed home like this for a while.I devoted most of the morning to devotions, reading and prayer. Something I give short-thrift too often any more. But, had I gotten up earlier, I could have done it all and still gone downtown.
I was a bit tired this morning when I first woke up so, that is why my decision to lounge longer.
I'll forgive myself. Perhaps tomorrow I'll feel like awaking earlier. And, perhaps it will be warmer tomorrow.
I am Grateful and Thankful...
for God's Grace -it's not earned. It is given. There is nothing I can do to "earn" it (although, I still try)
for Precious and her sweet cat-personality and her love toward me. She is a delight in my life
that I must end this desire to "take care of" other's in my life. I need to take care of me and not give away so much to where I don't have for myself down the line. This issue has been causing me great internal struggle for awhile.
for the bagel and cream cheese I just ate. Now I feel better able to do more moving around
I now feel the walls of the house closing in on me and must get my day started.
I have a birthday card to get and send, better get on it.
to be alive and well today. I also have a desire to stay this way so have made a commitment to have a complete physical. Should have called and made appointments today. I still can and will after my shower.
that writing and talking to other's helps me get things worked out in my mind and also, getting things done.
that I have company in friends and loved ones-I am not alone
Thank YOU
Sunday, January 4, 2009
life safari 1-4-09
This is my Sponsor's favorite poem.
So beautiful ! He read it to me this morning and I had to get a copy of it for myself.
Thought I'd share it.
That cold front is moving in here - drat ! I was enjoying the tropical air. But,
I am Grateful and Thankful...
I had success with not getting upset in traffic yesterday
I walked a little ways today. Little but, a start
I made a couple of calls today to people whom I love and have not talked to lately
I, I, I, I, what is wrong with this picture !
AA meetings, work and church are high on my list of "to do's" with regularity
my eating is under control and that includes when I eat out at restaurants - that's BIG !
for my precious cat
that I am going to begin traveling this year. I have stayed home because of my cat. She didn't do well the only time I boarded her for a trip. I am going to find a good place or have someone come to the house and...
I'm going to travel this year. A REAL vacation.
I will pray for Precious' safety and health while I am gone and turn it over to the Lord and accept that whatever happens is as things are supposed to be
I am excited about making changes in my life this year. I am going to be sooooo present in my own life in 2009 !
And, present in YOUR lives in 2009, so there !
I love you all
Thank YOU Lord
Saturday, January 3, 2009
life safari 01-03-09
Happy New Year !!!!!
I had a delightful end to 2008 with friends and loved ones and an inspired beginning of 2009 with friends and loved ones. So, I have been nurtured from both years. I'd say that is the best of all endings and beginnings. Thank you all who made me know that I am loved and pertinent in your lives.
I am Grateful and Thankful...
for joining Weight Watchers (again)
for some modest loss of weight but more importantly, I am not stuffing food into my mouth with impunity
for friends and loved ones
for Precious
for AA and the meetings that I have been attending
for St. Anne Catholic Church and the Masses and Priests there
that I am trying to change some things that cause me to become very upset and rant and rave
that my neighbor's across the street got their lost parrot back. I prayed for them to find that bird when it got out. It was found in Sugar Land. It landed on a man's head and would not budge until he got it food and water. One of the girls went on-line and the person contacted them that he had the parrot - I am so happy for them !
that the above was a wonderful surprise after all these days and cold weather after the parrot got out. We all were concerned the worst would happen and alas, the best happened !
that it has taught me to never give up
that seeing a car spinning out of control on 59 this morning showed me how easy things happen with speed and carelessness. Thank God it all turned out without anyone being hit by the car. The woman driving fought the spin and gained control. Also, those who saw it happen slowed down. The best thing - hardly anyone on the road at the time.
I am going to slow down and learn to not get upset in traffic
that is what gets me ranting and raving.
that I can change my behavior if I will apply myself and use what I know to end this madness
the knowledge that I can only control my behavior and what I think about other's behavior
I can only control my car and what I do with it
Thank YOU
I had a delightful end to 2008 with friends and loved ones and an inspired beginning of 2009 with friends and loved ones. So, I have been nurtured from both years. I'd say that is the best of all endings and beginnings. Thank you all who made me know that I am loved and pertinent in your lives.
I am Grateful and Thankful...
for joining Weight Watchers (again)
for some modest loss of weight but more importantly, I am not stuffing food into my mouth with impunity
for friends and loved ones
for Precious
for AA and the meetings that I have been attending
for St. Anne Catholic Church and the Masses and Priests there
that I am trying to change some things that cause me to become very upset and rant and rave
that my neighbor's across the street got their lost parrot back. I prayed for them to find that bird when it got out. It was found in Sugar Land. It landed on a man's head and would not budge until he got it food and water. One of the girls went on-line and the person contacted them that he had the parrot - I am so happy for them !
that the above was a wonderful surprise after all these days and cold weather after the parrot got out. We all were concerned the worst would happen and alas, the best happened !
that it has taught me to never give up
that seeing a car spinning out of control on 59 this morning showed me how easy things happen with speed and carelessness. Thank God it all turned out without anyone being hit by the car. The woman driving fought the spin and gained control. Also, those who saw it happen slowed down. The best thing - hardly anyone on the road at the time.
I am going to slow down and learn to not get upset in traffic
that is what gets me ranting and raving.
that I can change my behavior if I will apply myself and use what I know to end this madness
the knowledge that I can only control my behavior and what I think about other's behavior
I can only control my car and what I do with it
Thank YOU
Monday, December 29, 2008
life safari 12-29-08
HUG YOUR PET !Oh my gosh, Mike M. call me !!!!! I must pay extra for texting and don't know your cell Number-please call me !!
I am Grateful and Thankful for/that...
My former boss, Mike M commented and perhaps we'll connect via phone SOON !!! He put up with alot of my sassiness. He's a good Man !! Call me
people who love me in spite of my character defects (as above)
people come back into our lives after time apart - for instance-Mike and Mary
God's Grace
Precious and her wonderful companionship
I am so pleased with the holidays this year. It was calm, serene, loving and full of good will and good cheer
my friend Mary accompanying me to Libert, TX yesterday to visit Miss Beulah's grave
that, because I am sober and clean I have friends today. Thanks to AA, I have made changes over the years and have become a better person. Now with my HIgher Power in my life too, I am making even more progress to become a better person
the journey. the life safari. the company on my life safari - thank you all !
Trish is getting out and seems to be getting over her grief from her losses of late. Big losses and one after the other. God Bless !
Nagar and her new friendship. What a wonderful young woman, wife and mother
to be alive and well. In a fellowship of friends and family
Thank YOU
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
life safari 12-24-08
Christmas Eve. Merry Christmas everybody !!
I am Grateful and Thankful for/that...
I am sober, clean and smoke-free another day
that I have awesome friends/loved ones
Scott, what a beautiful sentiment - if Trish reads that Blog, she will be so appreciative of your sending Chester to round up Lucie and escort her to the Rainbow Bridge - such a sweet, sweet man !
that although I would rather not work, I am so Blessed to have a job !
some of the new and devastating sadness of losing Lucie is easing for Trish - Thank YOU, Lord
for Precious. She is my "special" gift of love from God
God's Grace and salvation
thank YOU
I am Grateful and Thankful for/that...
I am sober, clean and smoke-free another day
that I have awesome friends/loved ones
Scott, what a beautiful sentiment - if Trish reads that Blog, she will be so appreciative of your sending Chester to round up Lucie and escort her to the Rainbow Bridge - such a sweet, sweet man !
that although I would rather not work, I am so Blessed to have a job !
some of the new and devastating sadness of losing Lucie is easing for Trish - Thank YOU, Lord
for Precious. She is my "special" gift of love from God
God's Grace and salvation
thank YOU
Sunday, December 21, 2008
life safari 12-21-08
Sunday-I slept fitfully last night. This morning, I woke up knowing the sadness of death. The loss of Lucie and what it must feel like for Trish this morning.
I desperately want to help her carry the burden of a heavy heart.
The joy of Lucie's life is what we all want to think of and remember. And, remember we will. But, there is the emptiness of her space in the room. We'll remember that as well and, we will feel the normal sadness it creates.
As always, the daily happenings of what I see around me with other animals, the ones whose lives were not spared - my reaction is to hug Precious and hold her especially close and rub her ears longer, talk to her and assure her of how much I love her and fee Blessed to have her in my life ! And, I am Blessed.
She does her best to nurture me too. She gets on my chest and kneads the fat under my chin. That spot belongs to her.
I just watched her root under a towel in the chair piled with clean clothes. That's what cats do.
I just love her little cat - self. Her cat wisdom and love.
Today, I am Grateful and Thankful for the blessing of Precious in my life !
Thank YOU
I desperately want to help her carry the burden of a heavy heart.
The joy of Lucie's life is what we all want to think of and remember. And, remember we will. But, there is the emptiness of her space in the room. We'll remember that as well and, we will feel the normal sadness it creates.
As always, the daily happenings of what I see around me with other animals, the ones whose lives were not spared - my reaction is to hug Precious and hold her especially close and rub her ears longer, talk to her and assure her of how much I love her and fee Blessed to have her in my life ! And, I am Blessed.
She does her best to nurture me too. She gets on my chest and kneads the fat under my chin. That spot belongs to her.
I just watched her root under a towel in the chair piled with clean clothes. That's what cats do.
I just love her little cat - self. Her cat wisdom and love.
Today, I am Grateful and Thankful for the blessing of Precious in my life !
Thank YOU
Saturday, December 20, 2008
life safari 12-20-08
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December 20, 2008.
Lucie Herrera has expired.
She was lovingly and peacefully put to sleep after living a great life with Trish and Rosie.
I am Grateful and Thankful...
to have known this precious Golden Retriever for some years
that I was in the position to bid her a loving farewell today prior to her peaceful death
I was not aware today would be her day to be called away
I feel that she was ready, however. She looked tired. She put up such a galant fight !
Kidney disease was her demise
She was well loved and well tended to
humans wish to be treated with as much love and respect
I will keep Lucie, Trish and Rosie in my prayers. Precious will too.
We'll see you again, Lucie. Every time a pet is loved beyond measure, you'll be there.
God speed and God Bless. I'll miss your little mug
I'm going to hug Precious real close. Really, really, closely.
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